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3.06.2002
So, last night, I realised something...
..and wrote it at down, to type up here today. (Aren't you all so *lucky*? *g*)
But yeah...
...I've found my joy, my happiness, my reason for life...
Been sick the last four, five days...sick...bored...miserable...then depressed...no-one called or anything...was feeling so alone...
And I lay there and wondered...why'm I even here? I'm not doing anything with my life... ...couldn't find any joy in anything...not drawing, nothing...
...and I'd lacked the ambition to even switch the cd in my cd player. So I just listened to Passengers over and over. Which's ok, but.. well, and Sigur Rós. But only have four songs on the tape. And even those... when they ended, I'd be too lethargic or whatever to even hit play again.
So I've been lying here tonight [note: *last* night--!] with the radio on (WBER, of course, what else?!), and...ahhh...so nice...
...was gettin' concerned, tho, 10pm or so on a school night, still sick and needing sleep, and still awake after an hour or so... their 'First Impressions' show is due to come on...was gonna give up and put on my Starsailor cd or Sigur Rós...but thank God for keeping me awake, thank God for making me too drowsy to put the cd on --- they played a song from a new album by the Church!! And it's gorgeous...original line-up's back, and you can tell... sounds a little like "Under the Milky Way", but that's okay, they still sound *entirely* like themselves...and they're gonna be *touring*! The *US*!!
So I heard all this, and was so excited...so happy... more so than I've been for a week.
Come back some minutes later, they're talkin' about ex-Crowded House guys ('Hey, I know *them*, too!'), one's got a new album, they played a track, and it was great.
And I was all psyched, I know these bands...
And I realised.
This is what I live for. What makes me happy. What gives me purpose, drive, energy, everything.
This incredible thing called music.
...and I think I'd almost forgotten that...
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