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I want to love, but it comes out wrong. I want to live, but I don't belong. I close my eyes and I see blood and roses..." - "Blood and Roses", the Smithereens
...just had the biggest crises of the day...spent a good long while having a very nice conversation with Blake on aim...and then he said he should go (hey, this's actually rather late for him! *smile*)...we said goodnight...and I'm sitting there for like, two, three minutes, frozen, whether I should say "love you" as he signs off?...*shaking head*....sad, sad sad sad.... I didn't...don't ask for reasons...I didn't... but...doesn't mean I've forgotten my resolve from the other day...*gonna* try for *something* before this summer's out...*got* to..... ...damnit, what the fsck is *wrong* with me, why don't I let him *go* already?!?!
....rrrrrrrrgggghhhhhhh.....
...sorry...I'll shut up now.....*shaking head*...maybe it's just the large amounts of Smithereens starting to get to me... ...gonna go get some food, find some anime to watch or something...
*Ananda Daydream * 11:52 PM *
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