Sorry I kinda dropped off talking with you there, Laur...just discovered tonight that talking and typing two different conversations doesn't work very well for me. x__x;
(*Did* considered calling *you*, btw, but figured yer family might *really* flip out if I called. *g*)

So yeah... was all social tonight, it was kinda weird. *g* ..turns out the girl across the hall, Britt, isn't leaving 'til tomorrow morning. She had a few friends over here tonight, but could only sign in a few for the evening, so they asked if I could sign someone in for them. Which I did. Then they invited me to join their little party - they were gonna watch Newsies, which somehow I'd never seen, and they said I *had* to see it.
So, since like, everyone's gone, inc. my roommate, I joined them. ...and b'sides all that, Josh was there too. *g* *laugh*
Movie was *very* good, btw. Am now definitely in love with Christian Bale. *g* (Was before anyway, cos of Velvet Goldmine, but, y'know...*g*)
But, thing is...
...Josh reminds me *so* much of Brian. (Daf!!! it's Brian with blue hair!!!!! :D hehe..) A little bit in looks, but a *lot* in personality. ...and one of the girls reminded me of Holly-the-Hooligan... ...and in the movie, there was some tap-dancing, which made me think of Crazy for You, and thus, of Blake.....
After the movie, Josh left, one of the girls left, the rest were heading out for a bit, so I signed them out, came back to my room, got online... Blake and Laur were both on, talked to them...
...made the mistake of putting on Zone's "Secret Base". ...and I came the closest to crying that I have yet. (If they hadn't kept me busy typing, I would've, I know...) I miss everyone so much... ...Blake and Laur, thanks so much (err, not that "Blake" reads this that I know of..tho he might..wouldn't mind if he did, but I don't know..*g*) for hearing me out...tho I know you'll say it's the same for you or whatever, still. Thanks for being there. (Blake, thanks for staying up 'til 1am to talk. *smile*)
blake: yeah -- this is why I hate change < G >
me: *smile* yeah...
me: ...I love it and I hate it...I want it, but then I don't like it...*wry grin*
...and I was listening to "Electrical Storm", too..
"You're in my mind all of the time
I know that's not enough
If the sky can crack
There must be some way back
For love and only love...

...If the sky can crack, there must be some way back
For love and only love...

...Baby, don't cry..."
...like I said to Laurel, *how* is it that they're always saying exactly what's on my mind, in my heart? ..*smile*.....I love U2. Ever so much. More every time I listen, it's insane...

Finally, I broke down, and just called Blake. "It's so good to hear your voice!", and I *know* that's clichéd, but I don't care, it was true...
So we talked for awhile, just about random stuff (had gotten thru most of my sad-angst by this point, tho some of it still was)...but it was just nice.
Uh, until I got random cpu-voice, "You have two minutes left." I was like, what?!?!
So that wasn't cool. Guess I talked to Daf the other day and Blake tonight longer'n I'd thought. *g* Ah well. That was the first of two or three 60 minute cards. And then my grandparents got me a 600+ minute card. So it's all good. ^_^
...but I don't know...it was just strange, this was the first time I was *really* sad.....geez, only took me a frickin' *week* for it to sink in---! *wry grin*

ahhhhh.......

..but yeah. and Dad came down today, too, brought me some stuff (inc. my ZooTV vid...which *Brian* apparently found for me - someone tell him I said thank youuuuu!!!!!! *G*)...was alright, actually, went into town, got some dinner there, so...
..maybe that's what started to trigger this whole thing...tho it shouldn't've, the whole time Dad was here, I was like yeah, I'm fine here, no reason to go home yet...and..I don't know. Homesick isn't a word that ever came to my mind, 'til Laur suggested it. And maybe I *am* a little homesick. ...but, not really, like, I *do* like it here, and being on my own, and everything else.....it's just...Daf, I feel so out of touch with...everyone else, I *miss*.....I haven't anyone to exchange sarcastic remarks with during class, I haven't anyone to exchange glances with when there's a guy with blue hair in my class.......

"We talked and talked at the end of summer
Watching the sunset, then watching the stars
I'll never forget the tears that ran down your cheeks
Til the end
You waved to me
I know I won't forget it
So just like this
Forever in a dream...

I won't forget the end of summer with you
Dreams for the future, great hopes
I believe we'll meet again
In August, ten years from now

I knew that til the end
You shouted from your heart, "Thank you"
Holding back tears to say goodbye with a smile
It's sad, the best memories...
The best memories..."
- "Secret Base" (eng. trans), Zone