*sigh* ...too much going thru my head at once...and written theory isn't fun. >_<
...just found out something about two guy friends...Greg wasn't so much of a surprise, we'd wondered if he'd uh, "come out" once he got to college..and now he has (it's ok that people know this, he'd told Heather to go ahead and tell people, she just called me..). (And we all've kinda wondered...but at the same time, kinda hoped it wouldn't happen...cos we all love Greg, he's sweet. *smile*) ...but someone else, I don't know how much he wants it known so I'll not give a name, but it's another friend, and we *never* saw that comin'...so my mind's been blown by all this.
...and you know me...I don't agree with homosexuality at all, on a moral level. I think it's wrong. Period.
...this doesn't mean I'll go hating people just because of that, I've taken the love-the-sinner, hate-the-sin stance on that...or, at least, am trying to. ...Goodling kinda changed my view a little in that regard, really..and I know I'm not the only one, either.
But..yeah. Now it's two of the guys I spent my high school years with, y'know? ...and it's crazy.....

...and then I've got my own interior troubles I'm trying to sort out...why I can't stand being around someone I was friends with for a year...and I've no idea why, I don't understand it, and I'm trying to overcome it, but...I don't know. I honestly don't, and it's pissing me off. ...there's no reason at all for me to dislike him, there's really not...maybe it is like what Blake said to me, some people just rub you the wrong way, and it's nothing against them but you don't want to be around them...but that can't quite be it cos we were friends and all senior year...
I don't know.
...I lay there in bed the other night, trying to sort it all out, with myself, with God, asking Him to help me out...and C.S. Lewis came back to me again, and I had a silent shouting-match with God over it, and, as usual, He won. *wry grin* ...so.....I'm trying. "..maybe, maybe failing, but at least trying...this is called I Fall Down." (~Bono)

So I'm just gonna ask that people are patient with me, on a personal level, for the next while...I've got a lot on my mind.

Plus, y'know, as mentioned, I've got written theory to do, and it's a pain in the butt. I *get* it, it just takes me a bit.
Then I've got a buttload of art to do, too...*and* laundry still...meh.
...guess I shouldn't've slept quite so much of yesterday, huh? *g*