..and since I'm listing all the things running about my head anyways...
..the other thing is.....I can't get Blake outta my head. *half-smile* ...see, thing is...Heather suggested this, and it seemed reasonable enough to me. Keep my options open here, look at the other guys around, see what else's out there, y'know? just keep an open mind, and not to wholly forget Blake, but, y'know, just see if there could be someone else. Cos in all probablility, there is. ('least to Heather's mind, tho the thought's in my mind, too.) ..and...well...I tried. But I can't get him outta my head. Partly cos I'm talking to him online like, every day...but, I mean, I don't know...I go to sleep thinking about U2, daydreaming about Lar, whatever (thanks, Meg ^_~)...and then I dream about Blake.
Three times within the last two nights.
...so.....
*sigh* ..what to do?
...is it just me being stubborn again, is it a hang-up with no reason, is it just me trying to cling to what I know, what I've known, is it something legit, what???

*sigh*
There.
Think that's about everything now.
...
...*grimace* No, it's not...there's the whole faith issue, too, but that's a whole 'nother thing...
"I can't change the world, but I can't even change myself, so change me..." - "Rejoice", Bono, 1982