***stardust

duuuuude, that was waaaaay too long. ^^;;;; gomen-ne! ..shouldn't be any more like that for awhile...y'all know I don't get melodramatic over relationships with guys very often...but when it hits, well..*shrugs*..it's a bit hard to ignore. (and writing it through, trying to explain things, helps me think of over better myself..)

Anyway, we had Chinese food for Easter Dinner .. just merani and Dad and I, cos matantis took off riding.. (*sighs a bit* Himeros was telling me how much tantis has changed..and I see it, too...) But we had fun..

After dinner, I grabbed a Sigur Rós cd (I found them!!! and my babyU2 cds!!!! *bounces about happily* I got back home, and here they were, on the cpu desk *groans, then giggles*) and Angela's Ashes, and lay out on the log out back to finish reading... and it was so perfect..... the afternoon was, too, but in a different way...
Sitting there in the old dry grass, leaning against Himeros, his arm around me, his eyes on me... looking up at the bright blue sky above, feeling the warm sun on my back, and Himer beside me like that.. closing my eyes and just laying my head on his shoulder, his hand stroking my side gently.. gah. *smiles* ..it felt wonderful...
But then..
Laying on my back on an old bark-stripped log in my backyard, no-one around but a few small birds scrabbling about in the bushes near me (not even noticing my presence - so I was able to just sit and watch them for awhile)... faint whisps of cirrus far above me, against the bright blue sky, sun still warm on my skin.. the outlines of the still-bare trees sharp against the sky, coloured faintly with buds of deep red and yellow-green.. a good book resting in my lap.. and the most beautiful music in the world surrounding and permeating me... *smiles*
And if you asked me which I prefered, I honestly couldn't tell you..

merani and I hung out all evening, fighting over the computer and all... she was randomly possessed by mantikore and started drooling and slathering and occasionally trying to draw blood from my arm by scratching it. -_-;;; no more easter candy for the psychopath...!

Headed back to Fredonia (! already!?!) tomorrow around 11 (o'clock tick-tock ^_^), so I'm gonna write to Megs and get some sleep...nearly fell asleep on the couch while playing pokemon (shush..yes again..I'm sad, I know)...fact, think I *did* doze off, but I'm not sure if I was starting to dream about Himeros' arms around me, or Bono and Edge... *giggles* ah well. But yeah. Going now... 'night, all...

*Ananda Daydream * 11:57 PM * *

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