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So yeah, as additions to that.. see merani's lj for her version...
...and thanks so much to megs for staying up and worrying right along with me the whole time. *huugs*

So, after all that, today was good. Wnet to Holly's around 6.30 or something, hung out, we randomly decided to take a walk down the road, Brandon led a small contigent on a "Nature Walk", and I went along cos I figured *someone* who had experience wandering about in fields and brushrows and things oughta go along and make sure they didn't do anything silly... Scott was mega-spazz on the trampoline (you know what I mean), "jump at me!".."if you jump at anyone this season, jump at me", ad infinitum...during a spurt of actual semi-normalcy, he talked to me about Fredonia some, and I hope I managed to releave even a little of his apprehension about going off to college and all... I sat on the trampoline for awhile, and got bounced. and I like, shreiked/squeeled and it was all high-pitched and I was like ok NO... (random 'Dave Evans and the Giant Pickle' vibe: "And thith voith ith THO not macho!" *mad giggles* yay for Lar ^_^) Hung about, talked with people, went over and picked up some old fallen fence-bits while a few of the guys kicked at and otherwise ripped down some still-standing fence (with permission! *laughs*) to use in the bonfire...which eventually was started and was fairly large and mad hot (to the point where roasting marshmellows was really hard cos you couldn't get close to the flames at all, arm's length was still far too near)...
oh yeah, I got some lame pass made at me by random little boy, and some cousin of theirs wanted to know if I had a boyfriend, Brandon said this kid was 18 but he didn't seem it at all...and I was just like, uhm, okno.
what *IS* this, I get hit on by random freaky little boys but I've never been on a fookin' date??? gahhhhhh >_<
Got to talk with James for awhile again, he was sitting by himself on the far side of the fire, so I went and sat by him, and we talked awhile and it was good. *smiles* I dunno, I feel *so* bad for him, tho.. he's still not over Steph (whom he dated *all* thru high school and they seemed so perfect and happy together and just..everything), and she's jerking him around.. she's going out with *Trenton*, which really fucked with my head, and yet she's all telling James well, I feel a lot more connected to you than with Chris, but it's Chris she's going out with, and she said she knows when she gets back together with James it'll be forever but she's not ready for that yet... and I've heard this sort of thing before but it just doesn't make *sense*... meanwhile, you've all heard my tribute to James-the-wonderful, so I won't repeat it, but he's such a great guy..but his heart's still tied so close to Steph...
When pesky-evil-little-boy got to be too much for me, and people got up for something, I forget what, I went over and joined people laying out on the trampoline..lay down next to Laur and half-used her shoulder as a pillow/headrest for awhile *g*, while listening to her and Glenn talk about random stuff... it was just nice. I don't know Glenn well at all, but he's cool. ^_^
Laur wanted to call home around 11, so we wandered inside, and ended up hanging out and talking with Brandon awhile. He *is* just.. I don't even know, there's no simple way to describe him. *laughs* He's a composer, and fits all the eccentricities implied therewith, I guess. *G* And he's just..*weird*, a lot. But when you get him with just a couple other people and sit around and *talk* with him, he is pretty cool. Glenn came in eventually and we hung out, and shut pesky-evil-little-boy (who I realised is actually Brandon and Holly's little brother so I feel bad but he *is* evil) out of the house, and Glenn made MAD awesome pop-can towers, and yeah. Laur and I went downstairs to Brandon's room with him, cos he asked Laur about Cyrano de Bergerac (or however you spell it..I have it here someplace but I'm not about to check the spelling just now), which of course led her immediately into going off into her whole thing on it cos it's her favourite play EVER (..and come to think of it, it's my favourite play I've ever read, too *g*) and she adores it and is always trying to get everyone to read it. (which is good cos it rocks.) ^_^ So we went down to find Brandon's copy and Laur checked to see that it was a good translation (as it was originally in French, and some translations, like days, are better than others *g*).. and then we ended up looking at all this other random great stuff on his bookcases and it was fun. He had The Screwtape Letters and Laurel and I flipped and told him he HAS to read that as well, cos it's awesome. ^_^ So Brandon and Laur looked at and discussed books for quite awhile, while I listened and absorbed and added my two cents where I had any *g*. (Cos I read a lot, but I'm lacking in a lot of the "classics" cos I tend to not like a lot of them a whole lot. I loooathed "The Old Man and the Sea", and Dickens, as I believe I said in a journal I did for english, or maybe just on here, was a sick psychopath who enjoying tormenting his characters and should never have been allowed to set pen to paper. *shudders, twitches* evil.)
So about 1 Melinda drove Laur and I home, and Laur and I had a nice quiet discussion in the back seat (*reminding Laur*...tho I feel odd doing it, you know, cos I'm starting to wonder if maybe you shouldn't try so hard to keep yourself from liking him..which I know has occured to you as well, but.. *smiles a bit* I know and understand and agree with your reasoning, though, and it's good. ..get on his case with that e-mail, and maybe try to make it a regular thing. cos if anything, hey, he's cool, and you'll have lots of spare cpu time oce you get to college. ^_^)
So yeah. It's 2am and I'm going old-school 'Nanda. Had a nice cup of hot chocolate (in the mug I've had for as long as I can remember..and why you'd have a teddy bear with an ice cream cnoe on a hot chocolate mug *still* eludes me completely but I'm quite attatched to it *G*), am going to get changed and curl up in bed with a good book until I doze off and sleep. ^_^

*Ananda Daydream * 2:11 AM * *

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