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Anyway.. happy thanksgiving, all.
Mine's been kinda ehh, but whatever.. went to the grandparents' with my siblings and my mom, had an awesome dinner, so that was all fine...
just, I don't know. family gatherings get quieter and just..less exciting, each year. not that I mind going to them, I like my family (when my brother's not being an ass..which he hasn't been lately), and whatever.. I guess we just have less in common, less to talk over..
or it's just that none of us talk very much, with the major exception of grandma. *g*
Maybe it's just cos I'm a little tired and have a headache coming on.. I don't mean this to be a downer, I just...
I'm glad that huge family get-togethers still happen, seeing and catching up with relatives you've not seen since Christmas or the previous Thanksgiving, just being together and everything else.. I've not been a part of one myself since...since having Thanksgiving at my Aunt Kathy's sort of stopped happening, a few years ago, I'm not even sure how many... three, at least, probably more... but I know the thing hasn't gone away from the world, and that makes me happy.

But I've so much to be thankful for, and first on my list *are* my friends.. all of you, whether I talk to you for hours every day or haven't in months, you've all meant, and continue to mean, so much to me.. it's you who've made me who I am, who keep me being myself, who give me strength, who I look up to..
And there are all the other things, having a home that I can come back to, food, clothing, a family (fractured and distant as it sometimes feels), my sister whom I love, dearly, despite our occasional scraps and the fact that she's going to gag when she reads this *g*, being able to go to college - I love it there, I really do, Britt and I were talking the other night about how perfect an environment it is for us, we can be on our own but without having *quite* all the responsiblities and cares, and still learning, learning the things we *want* to learn...
I've had so many wonderful people in my life, I really have, teachers and friends, and bands and artists..
And I know I've been blessed with talents and everything else, I just wish I knew what I'm to do with the bits of everything that I have..but I trust that Someone will let me know when the time comes.
So despite my bit of an off-mood, I thank God for all He's given me, cos really, truly, it's so much more than I could ever have asked for.....

*Ananda Daydream * 8:03 PM * *

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