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So... Erin left.
..she's coming back tomorrow afternoon, I'll be at class/work, to ge the rest of her things, but...
I came back from drawing at 6 to find her and her mom in her room, packing... "you're leaving *today*?" "yeah.." I asked why, all she'd say to me was that it was "personal", and wouldn't say more......
...which *did* hurt me, cos, she and I told each other so much last year; she, Britt, and Haruna've been my three closest friends here on campus... and she can't tell me why she's leaving..?
(Talking to Erica later, she said that it was cos a lot of it had to do with Britt, and Erin didn't want to say anything to me cos I'm so close to Britt, but...?? *sighs*)
Not that I at all wanted her to do, *especially* out of nowhere like this! ..but I was good and helpful and helped carry a few things for her and whatnot... and we hugged and said goodbye, and I told her we'd miss her.....
...and she's gone.

Before I got back, when Erin first came back to the dorm, Britt was in the room napping, she woke up and Erin told her she was leaving... and Britt took off, Erin didn't know where.
By this time, it was definitely dark, and I knew how incredibly upset Britt must be... so I was worried, and decided to go out and look for her, futile as it would probably be, at least I could try... Erica walked past just then, so I filled her in, and she immediately volunteered to go with me. So I left messages with people to tell Britt to come back here if they saw her, left a message on her door and Erica left one for Jen who'd be back from class before long... and we headed out. Checked to see if Britt's bike was still there, and it was.. Walked all around the campus for about 20, 25 minutes, came back here to check and see if she or Jen'd come back... Jen *had* and was *gone*.
By herself.
So, we went out to the parking lot.. and found her car gone, she'd gone off alone and Jen doesn't *like* driving at night and-- gah.
So we had *two* friends to worry about.
Headed back to the dorm again, I told Erica to go in and leave a note for Jen while I grabbed my bike and went around Ring Road real quick to check... so I took off, peering into every darkened area around there, when I got to the woods I called her name, the whole time just *praying* that she - and Jen - were safe, and begging God to send them back home to us soon before anything could happen... not that Fredonia's a dangerous town by any means, but, this is after dark, they were both alone, and I don't doubt Britt could defend herself but in her current state of mind? I was *worried*.. and I knew she *needed* a friend right then, and she was all alone...
Rode around by the library stairs, jumped up to peek into the ampitheatre, looked all around, then sped back to the dorm... where, thank God, Erica and *Britt* were waiting at the bikerack. I jumped off my bike and just hugged her for a long minute or two, just *so*, so glad she was ok... the whole thing couldn't've lasted even quite an hour, but I'd been getting so scared, and just, I knew she needed us, and I wanted to be there with her and for her and---
So we were together again, went back inside, and thank goodness *Jen* was in there, and fine... there was much hugging and apologising and gratitude and just everything... but three of us'd eaten nothing yet, and we were all so frazzled, I suggested heading out to dinner. My treat. NO FECKING ARGUMENTS. Which there were, and a lot of. And they all brought money but in the end I won, tho I let them pay the tip cos I didn't have any small bills. *laughs* Jen drove us to Denny's and we aaaate which was good, tho Britt wasn't hungry and just had a few cups of coffee. We hung out there for probably an hour, hour and a half, just talking and laughing and picking out songs on the radio while I made towers and sculptures of the little containers of half-and-half or whatever it was. *giggles*
Drove back, and sat in the car another ten minutes or so cos a good song came on the radio and we all just sat there bopping about and singing for no reason for like two or three songs, and it was fun. Came back in and had a group hug *awwww*. *giggles* And Britt's had up the sweetest thank you as an away message, it almost made me cry (for like, the fifth fecking time tonight, this's ridiculous..)...
And I'm *sooo* exhausted now.. might do a round or two of ddr just to knock out any frustration and spaziness still in my system, then I'm curling up to read and sleeeeeeeep.

..feck calling resnet, maybe if I don't call them back they'll just forget this whole thing....... >_<

*Ananda Daydream * 11:30 PM * *

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