***stardust

*giggles* sorry for all overall lack of content here lately..uhm...but the mood is 'lovestruck' for a reason. *giggles* ghee. *smiles*
He's really, really sweet, and I'm really happy right now...
..only he *is* taking up a fair bit of my time and while I'm not complaining about how much I see him, cos, yay *smiles*...I'm also getting like *nothing* done. *laughs*
and I miss my Megs. *snuggles*
and Erik when Laur passes all of this on to you as she may or may not do, I'm not in the least sick of seeing you, don't worry. ^_^

so, yeah. am sleepy and haven't much that I'm gonna post on here just now, uhm...

my 20th birthday is in three days and it's scaring the shit out of me.
...I know, I know, it's only 20 and that's not really anything but--- not being a teenager scares me a little. supposedly 21's the big year but-- I don't drink, nor do I really intend to. and just.. 20 sounds grown-up. Not entirely, of course, as long as I'm in college I've free reign to do all sorts of ridiculously silly and random and fun and even childish things, but... *giggles, shakes head* still, though...it sounds a lot more grown-up than I feel... whenever I come home Dad'll tell me how much more mature and things I've gotten since I left for college..and in some ways, I know I've grown a fair bit, I'm a lot more independent and responsible than I was..not that I was lacking a whole lot in either area I don't think, but, still...idk. 20 feels like a lot, and it's just unnerving me a bit.
and megs you are NOT old. *giggles and hugs* really. you're like the main reason that I don't really let myself think of 20 as old, cos you're not old in my mind in the least, though you've got another three years on me. *g*
..part of the problem, I suppose, is that for whatever random reason, I seem to have this tendency to date younger guys.
ok so I've only dated two, but that's two for two so far...
..ok *if* you count Himeros as having been dated, cos I'm not so sure it really did 9_9
and it's not like I generally feel the age difference anyway, and even less so now with Erik than with Himeros, though that wasn't much the majority of the time.

and...I need to stop babbling. *laughs*

oh, and, no, there's no particular reason why Erik is the first guy to not have a codename...Mom was wondering and asked me about it tonight, and idk, I've been leaning away from codenames anyway, none of my suitemates have them, nor does Megs, and with Erik, he, like Himeros, began as a random guy friend, and thus had his actual first name used. Really, I just didn't see a point in suddenly switching to a different name. The high-school need for some partial sort of cover is no longer needed, as I'm no longer in high school...
..and anyway, anyone reading this'd figure it out like that anyway. *laughs*

And that was far too long-winded, my apologies.

And I'm *definitely* hungry now so I'm going to go eat, as a less-than-large dinner's the only thing I've ingested today.
Well and a candycane.
NOT corruptedly. well not really. just that there'd been onions in my meal and y'know. *giggles*
uhm
right
going now. *g* g'night~

*Ananda Daydream * 11:21 PM * *

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