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And just one more thing I need to get off my chest.
This cat-situation has gotten entirely out of hand.

Meghan's having some real misgivings about getting a cat of our own, as am I - I have been, but I knew the reaction I'd get if I said anything so I didn't until now, so I was trying to rationalise my fears away.. hell, I did it on here, even, cos I was scared of all of you fixating on the same thing I was.

That really *is* violating the lease, and he'd have every right to kick us out. I really don't believe he would, and the chance---

O_O! EEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!! MACKIIIIEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!

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gheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee omg he's singing "Desire" and I am about to pass out. I can't even see him and I'm getting all squirmy, gooooodnessssss.

I wasn't positive if he'd be in this show or not, I was trying not to get my hopes up just in case, but---
oh gheeeeeeee. I can't even--- mmmmmph.

what I would give.......

heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

^_________^! there were..what, eight shows at Wembley, I think? it's a set of six or eight bootlegs, anyway.. and Mackie's in all of--- EEEEEE!!! This is the Salman Rushdie show!!!!! *bounces*

But that's good cos that means I can concentrate for a minute cos I could recite this bit in my sleep. *giggles* hee. <3

But as I was saying..
Even if the chances of Norm actually dropping by and actually seeing the cat are like, insanely close to nothing.. he still *could*, or, really, what worries me more, is someone else slipping. Indoor cat though it may be, cats sit in windows, people drop by, there are endless possibilities. And y'all know me, you know that, paranoid though I may be at times, in most situations I just sort of hope for the best, and damn common sense.
But this comes down to actual legality, and y'know what? I don't want to get in trouble, I *really* don't.

Meghan and I agree on this, I don't know Justin's opinion, but Britt is *dead* set on getting a cat. And if we shut her down on this, she is going to be *pissed*, and I mean *pissed*.
And maybe Meghan can laugh things off with Britt, but I can't, I cannot take her being pissed off at me, cos she's brutal when she is. And I'm not trying to berate her, cos I know full well I can be just as bad, hell I know I've been - and to her, at that.. But Britt will not hear arguments from another side once her mind's made up, this's why I'm glad she didn't watch the debates with me tonight, I'm trying so hard to look at things fairly, though on one side I've got all I grew up with and some close friends, and on the other I've got those I have an incredible respect for and trust in, and other close friends, and my dearest friend..
And I realise I'm digressing, but I'm just going to say right now that I will *not* make public who I vote for. I'm just not, I have every right not to, and I'm *not* going to get into that mess with people. (Britt told me the other night she'll be mad at me if I don't, but y'know what? I'm not telling her. A secret ballot is a fucking secret ballot, whatever her opinion on it.)
*sighs* I just.. I wish I could be a neutral party in this and settle things out, but I don't think anyone's going to see me as one, even though I can be, peacemaking and seeing both sides is all I've been trying to do for years now.. I'm going to have a fucking minor in philosophy, if anything's a testament to being able to see all angles on a thing, that is..

Like I need all this right now. As is, it's only just this week that I'm feeling more comfortable around here again, the past two weeks I felt.. shunned, I suppose. And I know a lot of it's my own doing, and I'm sure some of it was me worrying things over until they grew far larger in my mind than they were in reality, but still.

If we don't get that cat, Britt (and possibly Justin)'s going to plung the house into that all over again.

...but I'm the one who sat here watching Britt and Meghan going absolutely *hysterical* with the visiting cat a week ago, so, so scared of someone finding out...to the point where we've not let him inside since, though he's sat on the porch waiting. There's a gap in logic here, we weren't doing a thing to keep the cat in, he just walked in, we didn't feed him, he stayed a bit, the same as any cat would linger in someone's back yard, the end. The worst that could happen already did, the owner got grumpy and told us not to feed him. (And technically, never said to not let him inside, though I know that's getting picky.)
Having a cat of our own and keeping it here is a breaking a legal fucking document.

*sighs*

..so much for logic...and now, back to the philosophy paper.....

*Ananda Daydream * 12:43 AM * *

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