***stardust

Why was Bono crushing a plastic cup of water, letting it spill all over his hand, so incredibly hot?

mmnphh.

*giggles* I am so hopeless.

But omfg, *fiiiinally* got this '83 show to finish downloading and ooomgheeeeeee. *__________* Sooo preeeetty. 8-20-1983, Rockpalast show.. Edge's shirt is rather unbuttoned. As is Ad's vest. Larry has on this thin little white t-shirt that I think he cut up himself. <3 Bono's hair's a bit oversized but gheeeeeee there's definite Bonofuzz an---
O_O
And he just took the silly over-shirt off and now he's in the nice black vest and it's *so* nearlytotally unbuttoned gheeeeeeeeee.
And he's bouncing all over and standing on the railing that holds the audience back and I adore.

and ADAM SINGS!!!!!!! *spazzes!!!* omg I'm flipping. Megs, if you don't already have this I will send you, you neeeeeed. (It's a dvd rip, still in the dvd files, so it took a bit of poking and talking to my brother to get the thing to play, but I've got it now and it's easy now that I know what to do. *giggles*)

O_O!!!! BONO FELL OMG!!! This man-- omfg. He's STANDING ON A POLE, like the top of a fence-thing, it's a pole maybe a few inches in diameter. I cannot even fathom how he didn't fall right away, but then he FELL a good four feet down, landing on his cute lil bubblebutt and rolling to his back on what looks to be concrete. O_o;

AND HE JUMPS RIGHT BACK UP AND HE'S DANCING ON IT OMFG. *laughing helplessly* Granted there are roadies holding onto his legs now, but I can't even believe this boy.
I adore. So much.

*laughs* and a song later, he sits on a crouching roadie's back. <3

Meanwhile, I am *SO* sick of the bullshit around here, to the point where, honestly? were it a viable option to live at home next semester, I *would*, I am so sick of this. Britt and I were in the kitchen, fixing ourselves late dinners, talking. And she said she was thinking about taking Bear home with her for Thanksgiving break.
And I brought up with we've been tip-toeing around, and mentioned something about Britt's friend taking her or what was going on? And Britt gives me this look.
This is exactly what Meghan told me she was afraid of the other night: she apologised to Britt for the whole mess, but she feared Britt thought that it meant she and Justin were ok with having the cat here now. And that definitely wasn't the case, and I said no, what reason would she have to think that?
Well, she apparently *found* a reason. >_<

So we talked about it, for quite awhile.
And she says she feel really betrayed in this whole situation. And we both agree that no-one, ourselves included, have handled things in the right way. And she admitted again that she has a temper etc (but she uses this as an excuse to be bull-headed, she never tries to curb it).
But what really got me?
She said that she'd had this all planned out, two weeks ahead of time we were all agreed, she planned it all and worked things out with her parents and everything else... and then we came to her two days before and said we were having doubts.
And I agreed, yeah, we probably should have said something sooner...but y'know, sometimes it takes awhile for things to sort out in your head.
And then Britt said, I'm not the kind of person who, after planning something all out for two weeks, is going to go back on it two days beforehand, because of a few doubts.

yeah.

*siiiighs heavily* and she thinks she's right.
..rather, she *knows* she's right, she has no doubt, at least none that are remotely visible.

Meghan told me that she's purposely not letting herself get very close to Bear because she's had to let go of a cat before, and it was really, really hard - she doesn't want to get attatched to something she just has to say goodbye to again so soon.
Britt insists Meghan and Justin just don't want the cat, they don't like Bear they don't want her etc.
So I explained to Britt what Meghan told me. And Britt says it's complete bullshit, it just means Meghan doesn't want the cat, the cat doesn't understand something like that, and I'm like no, look, it's not about that at all, that's jsut what Meghan feels she has to do, for herself.. and try as I did, I almost started crying I was getting really upset, Britt *cannot* accept that as a legitimate thing, she *will not* accept that that's how some people are, that's just what they have to do.

*siiiighs heavily*

I told Britt that Meghan and Justin were thinking about moving out after this semester. She said that would be fine with her, we could find two new roommates, or cover it ourselves, whatever.
Later, she said *she'd* been thinking of moving out after this semester.

So apparently?
All anyone here cares about is their own side of the issue, and I'm the *only* one trying to hold things together.
No-one else even wants to.
Why am I even trying, I'm only going to get left behind in the fucking cold as they all go on their merry seperate ways.

*turns attention back to the passionate, bouncing Bono and amazing Lar and stunning Edge and guhhifying Adam, letting the songs wrap a sore heart*

*Ananda Daydream * 11:34 PM * *

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