*siiiighs heavily* While my headache (amazingly) left before it got too bad... I'm all sleepy but I don't want to go to bed. Megs wanted to play tonight, and so did I, but my head's all thick and blank and I knew I wouldn't be able to think of a thing to say or do in-bubble, and it'd only make things weird and boring and sad, and I just wasn't up to it..
And things here are fine, except that it doesn't feel like home. My stuff's mostly in my room, at least my college stuff, and I'm slowly learning where things are, but.. the walls feel thick here, I barely know half the people, Lawrence doesn't have internet yet, the cats are here but they live outside and in the garage, cos Kevin's allergic..
Mel's not here tonight. It's too quiet around here. I'm not in the mood for any particular music (though I've Tomorrow is Forever's "One Last Chance" in my head...*siiighs* which probably isn't helping right now, due to all its connotations for me)...
Tom was online for awhile, I was really happy for a little while, talking to him and Megs and briefly Ryan...
But now I feel really alone and lonely. Megs is on but I've said something wrong again, idk, something feels weird and I know it's me. Tom's gone to bed. No-one's awake around here now. And I can't run over and toss woodchips at Daf's window 'til she looks out so I can talk with her awhile.....

Fuck it and now I'm crying again. I should go to sleep, but I don't want to...