You know, this whole being the oldest sister thing has really soaked into my psyche. I'm constantly playing the big-sister to people I know. This may be partly because I do find myself hanging around people younger than me - coworkers, lots of my friends in high school, etc. But whether I'm listening to one of the girls at work talking about her boyfriend, or one of the boys talking about some social drama, or just now, talking with DJ, who said he had planned to go to sleep, and I know from Tom that the kid hardly ever sleeps, so I get all "You goose, you're sleep-deprived often enough as it is. GO SLEEP!" and "But I'll be good and go write, if you'll be good and go sleep."

Tom thinks it's all a mothering-complex, but I think it's more of a big-sister thing. Either way, I'm such a gooshy little mother-hen sometimes it's ridiculous. I just see these little kids with problems and I have the psychological impulse to scoop them up, pat their heads, put them to bed and feed them soup and/or cookies.


...and then at the same time, aaany time I'm with a group of people, I wind up hanging around the outskirts of the group, just kind of watching and soaking things in, without actively participating much. (Take a look at any pictures other people post to facebook of me, and you'll see it.) Oh, contradiction-laden personality.

Labels: being social, navelgaze