"Satellite" (Ananda's reprise)
Confusion blinded me, mental and physically ..no kidding....
And it's because of you that now I can see ..God, help me see...show me what You have planned for me, please!
So now can I run? I follow the Son and ride on to Zion ..now can I run? I'd follow the Son, if only I could see where He was going... ..like Bono said, I want to run, I want to hide..
And dance this last song of freedom ..freedom... ... ...

 
*sigh* ...y'know, I never thought I'd ever get that whole, stereotypical teenage attitude, the don't-talk-to-me-cos-I-don't-care thing, the my-parents-are-stupid thing, the shut-up-I-don't-wanna-hear-it thing... ... ...but I've got it now. 17, nearly 18 now..an' just getting it, so I guess I'm kinda lucky in that respect, but...
What is it about the college-thing that seems to automatically piss us off? I'm not the only one who gets upset when it's brought up, I know of at least one other friend (who I would've never suspected it from)..but still. Anytime we're talked to about picking a college, or sending out applications..it's this inexplicable thing, I just get all pissed off. It's not that I don't *want* to go to college - I *do*, so I can get the fuck outta here... but then... ... I've been enjoying so much of this year, I love my friends, I love my room, my music, many of my teachers... ... ...I don't want to leave it, this whole prospect of growing up and being entirely on my own..I want it, but I don't want it. I want the freedom, but I don't..I think it's just that I don't want to necessarily *do* anything with it. Like, I just want a carefree existance...I want a simple life, just me and my music, for awhile...what I really want to do is just *go*, just travel, I don't care if I have to live out of a car for a year or two, I've no problem with that at *all* (as long as I've got a decent sound system *g*). But...
*sigh*
*singing under breath* "I'm [almost!] eighteen, but I don't know what I want...I gotta get out of this place..."

 
Got P.O.D.'s "Satellite" album for Christmas..it's very very good... some of it's kinda weird, a few of the songs have this Spanish/Mexican like guitar i them, which you wouldn't really expect from what you hear of them on the radio..but what was *really* a surprise was the two or three tracks that were..well...pretty much just reggae. Which was interesting. And a lot of the time they mention God, they refer to Him as "Jah"..which's fun. ...but yeah, some of the lyrics are great...

"Satellite"

I wonder how clear it must look from there to here
No obstruction, this selfish corruption
All in this atmosphere

No fear, less tears, only time to catch my breath
I fail to inhale
Your love constricts my chest

Confusion blinded me, mental and physically
And it's because of you that now I can see
So now can I run? I follow the Son and ride on to Zion
And dance this last song of freedom

But only time will tell, if it's truly for real
Can't change your mind, all I know this is what I feel
Whether I'm wrong or right, please keep my life in sight
And never take your eyes off me

As I look to the sky today
Well I can see you looking down on me
It brings a smile to my face again
Satellite

It's truly one of a kind, like star shine, beyond night time, are you there
My eyes stare to find, just what's behind this blind notion of mine, is it genuine
'Cause sometimes, it plays tricks with my mind, some call it asinine

But it's like love or hate, now is that real or fake?
'Cause it's a real thin line, but that's your choice to make
The question at hand, help me understand, is this your plan?
I think I can, can I think, then I think I can

Because I won't break (nah), and I won't shake (nah)
With lifted hands to this Man (Jah), I'll stand in faith
I'll make it through, my trust in you
Close my eyes, make a wish, kiss the sky

Hey there...I see you

As I look up to the sky today
Well I can see you looking down on me
It brings a smile to my face again
Satellite

 
Merry Christmas, everyone... or whatever holiday you may celebrate...I personally will continue to say "Merry Christmas" to everyone, just cos that's what *I* celebrate, and if no-one ever gets yelled at for saying "Happy Kwanzaa", then there's no reason I should get yelled at for saying "Merry Christmas"... *sigh* ...I'm tellin' ya...it's the reverse discrimination hitting again...
..but anyways...
Is it just me, or does Christmas feel kinda...I dunno...subdued, this year? It could just be me, my family situation just now, but..I'm not sure.
In any case, Christmas is here - Christmas lights all over the house (thanks to me - I *love* Christmas lights, I really do..), Christmas songs on the radio (dude, I love college stations - I've heard U2's version of "Christmas (Baby Please Come Home)", which's the only Christmas song they've ever officially released, like ten times in the last three days *G*) (also, heard something earlier abuot "I want an alien for Christmas"..? *G*)
...if only it would snow...!