***stardust

1.09.2004

Oh yeah, and Erik if you read this like at school or something before I've a chance to talk to you, what're we doing Saturday, and are we going to Laur's pizza-thing? *laughs* Cos I wouldn't mind, I just didn't know if you had anything in mind already. ...goodness knows *I* don't (apart from, y'know, just being with you, which's enough *smiles*), but this is nothing new. ^_^;;;

*Ananda Daydream * 12:44 AM * (0) stars grow bright *

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*giggles* so, yeah, it's official, I should *not* try to plan parties. It just..no. *laughs, shakes head*
The weather goes like DOOM, so Britt couldn't make it, Erik had to leave kinda early after getting here a little late, DDR decided to stop working from the moment we attempted hooking up Laur's pad with mine - it'd worked FINE all afternoon, and then we couldn't get it at all 'cept on Lawrence but my pad - the only one we could get to work right - doesn't like the carpet in here. bahhhhh. And I forgot that we have birthday cake which I should have fed people. And I forgot to get any pictures but it's not like we did more than sit around and talk and whatever and eat pizza anyway. *giggling*
Not that that's not fun, I had a nice night. ^_^
Just..y'know. *giggles* Me + plans = yeahokno.
And I miss Megs and Zinni and Britty&the rest of my suitemates.

Glad I got to talk to you a bit anyway tonight Megs. ^__^ *giggling* tho omFg I can't even---wow. Did you get extra Starbucks in you or was it just U2-spazziness from watching things and not having anyone about to spazz with, cos...wow. *giggles*

Laur, thanks ever so for the Holy Grail action figure. Am much amused. *giggling*
Daffy, thanks for the bracelets and Labyrinth stuff. ^_^

And thanks to you both and Erik for braving weather of DOOOOOM to get here. Wellok so Daf didn't have far to travel but y'know. *giggles*

...

there are FAR too many giggles in this post. my apologies. I blame it on the Mountain Dew...

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1.07.2004

*smiles*
talked things through with megs, that's working out, erik got his pig project all done...
...
...and he stopped by after school...
...and for my birthday...not only did he get me flowers, but...
...two dozen roses.

*laughs softly, shakes head* I don't even know what to say, I'm so overwhelmed.....

He gets me the roses, Megs sent me so much, she got me the *Desire* *single*! *and* an awesome shirt and awesome socks and friggin' *British candy* and she made me a littleLar and he's perfect and just---

I am so blessed to know the people that I do, I truly am..
..and it's not just the stuff they get me, it's not that at all, just that I know they mean it, that they get me so much because they're thinking of me and care about me, and everything else...
...and you're all here for me every time I need you, with whatever trouble I'm having, with the slightest or deepest dark mood...you listen to my angst and my spazzing, you put up with my indecisions and my twisted comments, and you're always there to laugh or to cry with me.....

thank you all. <3

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*dry laugh* hooray for the annual gift of angst for my birthday... this's the third year running. >_<

megs... I'm sorry. you have e-mail, hopefully it makes some sense at least...

erik... just get your friggin' PIG binder done. *smiles* I'll be fine. and YES you WILL be able to finish it. really.

merani and laur... thanks for listening. *hugs*

concrete blonde, thanks for "Mexican Moon", which I've listened to probably about twenty times in a row, just cos the sound fits my mood perfectly, and the lyrics are angsty anyway, a few hitting just right.....

Oh, amigo
Here we do things slow
Money, art, a broken heart
Where did you want to go
Señor, por favor
To the hotel, zona rosa
What did I come here for

Oh, señor
I run but the damage has been done
Miles have gone away
And my amore he never come

I look up at the sky
I am tired and dry
Uno tecate and lime.
Thinking of you underneath the mexican moonlight
Thinking of you underneath the mexican moon

Señor, you are wise
I can see a million years
A million tears behind your eyes
Take me home
Take me to the zona rosa
Mariachis and tequila
I will dance the night alone

Just some time
Just a little kiss of mine
Take me where I can forget, senor
You are so very kind

I look up at the sky
I am tired and dry
Dos tecate and lime
Thinking of you underneath the mexican moonlight
Thinking of you underneath the mexican moon

I look up at the sky
I will try not to cry
Tres tecate and lime
Thinking of you underneath the mexican moonlight
Thinking of you underneath the mexican moon...

*Ananda Daydream * 12:11 AM * (0) stars grow bright *

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1.05.2004

merani's final opinion on the LotR movies?

watch it for the bishonen, people. Overall Rating: 7/10.

*sighs* and so, the battle continues on...

(*giggles* but go read her full review anyway just cos it's fun. ..if you're looking at this via archive and it's no longer on her main page, go here.)

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feck. I had a ridiculously good dream about him last night...
...and he got me to tell him about it.
*blushes and dies*

ehm...
*giggles*
right.

since we're erik-ing anyway, two things I thought of last night that I meant to either post or spazz over, so, yeah.
1) I have been told the secret of the male habit of baggy-clothing. According to my source, who was feeling insecure in a shirt that wasn't even close to skin-tight, just, y'know, it *fit* about right, it's cos while girls tend to show off what they have, guys tend to hide what they don't - muscles, for example. so I explained that really? huge muscles tend to gross us out, at least, my friends and I. cos just..eww. no. overdone. looks stupid and just eww. *giggles* nice, subtle muscles, like Lar- or Edge-arms. ^_^ there, but not, y'know, bulging. and even then, I mean, that's like, the high-extreme of what we like. *g*
not, of course, that this made him stop hiding in his oversized hoodie. :p pesky boys. *giggles*

have yet to decide if this has a deeper psychological ramification. *g*

2) along those lines..in fact, I think as part of that thread of conversation, I pointed out that I'm squishy, and he poked at my tummy, and said nah, and said that I'm fine.
*smiles warmly*
..not, y'know, that I'm really that insecure about it? only.....I couldn't help but think back to Himeros, who, once poking at me in a similar fashion, asked if I'd ever thought about getting rid of some of that.
>_<;
and yeah I wouldn't be adverse to losing an inch or two but.. I know I'm not overweight, and I don't feel that that should really be a priority in life for me anyway.

then he contined poking at my tummy just for the hell of it cos we were getting random and silly at that point. *giggles* idek.

also.. if it looks to anyone like I'm just spazzy-happy cos I have a bf, that's not the case at all. had I just wanted a boyfriend, I'd've had one by now, if I'd just wanted a snogging-buddy, there's a number of occasions I could've let things pick back up again with Himeros...
...but that's not it at all. *smiles*
I didn't come home planning on anything happening at all, Erik's been in and out of my mind for awhile yeah, but I didn't expect anything to actually happen...
...yay for surprises. ^_^

*Ananda Daydream * 2:11 PM * (0) stars grow bright *

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1.04.2004

ok y'know, this is my blog damnit, and I'll boyfriend-gush if I want to, this's the first time I've actually had someone to call that and I'm going to enjoy it.
*laughs*
so feel free to skip over, though this is very tame and everything, honest.. it was just really, *really*, sweet... idek why, but it was. *smiles*

so he's about to take me home, I'm sitting on the stair tying my shoes.. he goes to the closet and gets my coat for me. I get up and step over to him, he's smiling, and he holds out my coat for me to help me into it. I slip into it, and the moment I do so he just wraps his arms around me and hooolds me for a moment...
*melts*

*smiles softly*
so there's the random moment of sweetness for the night.
*blows a kiss, willing it to make it to him despite his uncooperative internet*

*Ananda Daydream * 11:27 PM * (0) stars grow bright *

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*giggles* sorry for all overall lack of content here lately..uhm...but the mood is 'lovestruck' for a reason. *giggles* ghee. *smiles*
He's really, really sweet, and I'm really happy right now...
..only he *is* taking up a fair bit of my time and while I'm not complaining about how much I see him, cos, yay *smiles*...I'm also getting like *nothing* done. *laughs*
and I miss my Megs. *snuggles*
and Erik when Laur passes all of this on to you as she may or may not do, I'm not in the least sick of seeing you, don't worry. ^_^

so, yeah. am sleepy and haven't much that I'm gonna post on here just now, uhm...

my 20th birthday is in three days and it's scaring the shit out of me.
...I know, I know, it's only 20 and that's not really anything but--- not being a teenager scares me a little. supposedly 21's the big year but-- I don't drink, nor do I really intend to. and just.. 20 sounds grown-up. Not entirely, of course, as long as I'm in college I've free reign to do all sorts of ridiculously silly and random and fun and even childish things, but... *giggles, shakes head* still, though...it sounds a lot more grown-up than I feel... whenever I come home Dad'll tell me how much more mature and things I've gotten since I left for college..and in some ways, I know I've grown a fair bit, I'm a lot more independent and responsible than I was..not that I was lacking a whole lot in either area I don't think, but, still...idk. 20 feels like a lot, and it's just unnerving me a bit.
and megs you are NOT old. *giggles and hugs* really. you're like the main reason that I don't really let myself think of 20 as old, cos you're not old in my mind in the least, though you've got another three years on me. *g*
..part of the problem, I suppose, is that for whatever random reason, I seem to have this tendency to date younger guys.
ok so I've only dated two, but that's two for two so far...
..ok *if* you count Himeros as having been dated, cos I'm not so sure it really did 9_9
and it's not like I generally feel the age difference anyway, and even less so now with Erik than with Himeros, though that wasn't much the majority of the time.

and...I need to stop babbling. *laughs*

oh, and, no, there's no particular reason why Erik is the first guy to not have a codename...Mom was wondering and asked me about it tonight, and idk, I've been leaning away from codenames anyway, none of my suitemates have them, nor does Megs, and with Erik, he, like Himeros, began as a random guy friend, and thus had his actual first name used. Really, I just didn't see a point in suddenly switching to a different name. The high-school need for some partial sort of cover is no longer needed, as I'm no longer in high school...
..and anyway, anyone reading this'd figure it out like that anyway. *laughs*

And that was far too long-winded, my apologies.

And I'm *definitely* hungry now so I'm going to go eat, as a less-than-large dinner's the only thing I've ingested today.
Well and a candycane.
NOT corruptedly. well not really. just that there'd been onions in my meal and y'know. *giggles*
uhm
right
going now. *g* g'night~

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Liking this boyfriend thing.

Liking the Erik-thing in general.

a lot.

gheeeeeeee.

*is a very happy lil me*

^_^

*Ananda Daydream * 12:59 AM * (0) stars grow bright *

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