"The real language problem: how to bend it shape it, how to let it be our freedom, how to repossess its poisonsed wells, how to master the river of words of time of blood..."
-The Satanic Verses, Salman Rushdie

 
Hey, alright, Matantis was back sooner'n I thought, network's back up! ^_^ ..thus, new love-of-the-moment..

 
-_-#...stupid network's down again! ..was gonna go make a new "love of the moment" pic, but...dude, *how* can it go down? The network runs from my basement, to the living room and upstairs. What kind of---gah!
And, of course, when I actually need him here, Matantis isn't home...gah...
...ah well...will go play in photoshop anyway...I need a break, I read Satanic Verses *all* frickin' day...am nearly half done..which's great, except...I've gotta get it mostly done this weekend, cos I won't have much time once school starts up again...and then there's everything else to get done, but I'm too burned out just now to do it...
I hate school.
Even when it's not in frickin' session, they torment us, ruin what lives we could have, with their endless stupid assignments, demands...

*am going off to play with Larry pics in Photoshop before I get all angsty again!*

 
*happy sigh*...stardust...life is wonderful...beauty...
...spent the night/day over at Laur's, Daf and I were there for over 24 hours, which's always fun ~_^...and...we watched weird tv shows (British whenever possible *g*)...read thru each others' stories...listened to music (U2 ^_^)...said lots of insane things...and..talked...and it was great...thanks, guys... ^_^
And since I've gotten home, spent some quality time with my little sister Teraa...poked around u2.com, watched some videos there...and smiled and laughed, I love this band...not only's it great music, they're *fun* *g*...found vids of Lar being..well..silly!!! *gaspo!* *g* ...and then I played in photoshop...and finished angel-Larry...and then did some cool ones of Bono that I just finished...
...and I'm still in the shirt I had on yesterday and my pajama pants...but the air is that of summertime...and though I'm so very tired, I'm just...content...feels like summertime...
...*am ignoring massive hw that I should be stressing over*...
..but like I was tellin' Daf and Laur today...I just want to *learn*, to have time to learn things, read things, experience things, all that...but school's binding me down so much some times...
...tho...my hs grades don't matter at *all* from here on out...already been accepted to college...and they've already decided class ranking, I'm someplace in the top twenty of my class (tho I'm not sure where...I really coulda been top ten, tho I might be still, but gym and calc dragged me down...)
But whatever...am going to keep on my happy mood...really, came out with some nice Lar and Bono pics...go see...and on u2.com, watched a bunch of videos, making-of-videos, alternate videos...and the in Until the End of the World vid..damn...Larry..is gorgeous...really, go check these vids out if you've a few minutes (and a decent internet connection, they're pretty bad if you've less than broadband)...and then the making-of things, the one for "One", they were talking with Anton Corbijn (! yay! ^_^)...and the band's just goofing around, Larry's being silly and laughing, and...
Got good music on, too...U2...Live (who I'm *really* startin' to like, d/n'd about half of their "Ecstatic Fanatic" album..don't worry, I'll go buy it..if I ever get some $!)...Escaflowne stuff...some random techno (inc. "Angelfalls"..<3...)...and what few Church mp3s I could find...
Oh, that's right! Just found out today...Starsailor's gonna be in Buffalo - just an hour away!..but this coming Monday. With Nickelback etc., which I find kinda odd...but I'd *love* to go see them, but...it's $20 and I'm off to Boston end of next week, and it *is* an hour's drive, school night, etc....*sigh*...
But... Rush is comin' to Darien Lake this summer!!!...frickin' awesome...
But yeah...tho I should go, should get some sleep here prety soon so I can get up in the morning...did actually manage about five, six hours of sleep over at Laur's, but..it was kinda sporadic (y'know, like, 8am-2 or something bizarre like that, I can't even remember...)
*yawn*
*contented sigh*
...summer night-air, and a glass of cold water...

 
Been reading Rushdie's The Satanic Verses all day...it's bringing up so many questions this time through...all these things with the Prophet, and Allah, the other gods worshipped..Shaitan's daughters...and I'm in *waaay* over my head, I know *nothing* of Islam, really...and then, I have a hunch this might draw a lot on the myths surrounding things, too...stuff like...y'know, like Lilith, she's not really Biblical, but she's a part of religious belief sorta, religious tradition/myth..and that's the area I know so very little of, be it Christian or Judaic or Islamic or whatever...so that's really the stuff I need to look up, but I'm really clueless as to where to *look* for that kind of thing...
...tho it's interesting, I'm learning already...
(As I sit here, thinking about the symbolism of water...printing out a chapter of the Quran...listening to a song called "Angelfalls" (by George Acosta..techno..there's a million mxes but I love it)...)
...needed to look into some of this kind of stuff anyway, to try and figure out some of the things in X/1999 and Angel Sanctuary...cos there're a ton of references to Biblical, semi-Biblical, etc things in those...and in T.S. Eliot's poetry...and in U2's lyrics...(ok, so most of U2's stuff I've figured out now..but I keep discovering new things)...The Screwtape Letters...
..and just the learning of all this I enjoy...and then too, it'll help me out with my story, I think. ~_^

 
I can't decide if this series looks really really cool, or really really lame... -_-; ...*g* ..not that there's much chance of me finding much on it unless I get hold of some $, which isn't especially likely.. -_-, ...
But yeah...not much new today...read Satanic Verses, went over to mom's, read thru some of the Oscar Wilde poetry I'd printed out awhile ago...
..and did more work on my semi-secret (and rather sad) project...hehehe...don't know why I feel like being semi-secretive about it...just do...*shrug*...think I want to surprise people...and then have them groan aloud cos I'm obsessed, but... ~_^

Also created a nice, rather odd outfit today. All me. It's all good... took one of the white t-shirts we'd bought for me to do my Larry shirt with, cut the sleeves off, and had a nice white sleeveless. (Like Lar. ~_^ ..tho, once I find the right paint, I'm makin' it a Bono-shirt...y'know the one he wore with the checkered pants? yeah. ^_^) Got out my once-normal jeans, which I have torn, patched, and re-torn multiple times...and was gonna wear 'em cos it was freakin' HOT today (80+ degrees! and it's *April*!! this is *New York*! ahven't even got leaves on the trees yet!!!), but realised the one hole was still a little too big etc..not cool..thus, I dug thru mom's old sewing box, and got a mess of safety pics, thus creating a nice punk-ish look. Add some random jewelry (leather bracelet mom had in the '70s, awesome old bracelet I snatched from offstage room at school, etc.), few safety pins to the shirt, and wa-ha. ^_^
I'm sorry, I'm rather proud of it.
^_^

 
And I have "Chop Suey" *totally* stuck in my head...it won't budge...found an Esca-movie music vid of it today, and the song could really fit Esca very well...but the way they put the vid together, it didn't work all that great...hardly any Folken in it -_-, ...and he's the one who prolly fits it the best...(b'sides, he's lovely...the *best* blue hair ever...well, with the possible exception of Rai, of course. ~_^)

And yes, I did go play..err..dress-up, with Bono...I'm sorry, that sounds so wrong...but yeah, Matantis walked in, I had to kinda find somewhere else to be online...*sheepish grin*
...but I'm mad, they still don't have enough Larry clothes!...
...
...wait a sec...they give an e-mail addy to send to if you want to donate more clothes...
*scurrying off into photoshop, all thoughts of Amiboshi (temporarily!) vanished*

 
Gwa-hah-hah! Better idea!! U2's Boudoir's got Bono up now!
*eeeeeeeeeeg*
^~^
...
...
...bloody hell...
...did I just say (er, type?) "gwa-hah-hah*?
Good Lord...I *really* need to get out more, away from psycho-finalfantasyobsessed-sister...

 

The Band Quiz By Rahel
^_^ And dang proud of it!
..erm..'cept they got their description ALL WRONG....FLUTES ROCK. That's just all there is to it. Best instrument in the world.
'Cept drums, of course. ~_^
But yeshhhh...am very tired...and very out of it (can you tell?)...just spent *faaaar* too long randomly wandering about places...namely here, where there's a *crazy* lot of insanely awesome desktop pics...carp...*sad sigh*...I've a long way to go, I think...but theirs, they've got better pics to work from, I think - I mean, I don't think it'd be *possible* to do a *bad* pic of X/1999 or Angel Sanctuary...not when you've got manga and a decent scanner (that frickin' WORKS...gah...)...but they use U2 songs in some of the pics. *G* That's just always cool...tho their songs aren't always fitting the pic, I don't think...
..but dude, just by looking at their X desktop pics, reading their li'l blurbs...there's a lot more goin' on in that story than I'd guessed... -__-;;
..ah well...
Hrm. Should really go find something to do...already spent most of the day doing hw, that's enough of that...need some kick-butt pics to make decent desktop paper with...hrm...ah! I know! Never *did* get around to doing an Amiboshi desktop pic...or a new, better, Folken one, for that matter!
*skipping merrily off*

 
Man...d'you have *any* idea how hard it is for me to spell colour "color" when I'm doing html?? *siiigh*.... ~_^
But yeah. Love of the moment is *definitely* Myst Exile..finally got around to re-installing it...thank goodness I saved my saved games before we reformatted Rhonda!...so yeah. Been playing for..ohh...lessee...five hours or so? *g* *Great* fun....tho thank goodness for great walk-thrus...(Hey. I don't use them *that* much. Just when I get entirely *stuck*, and have no idea where to go next. Honest.)
..had a nice day...spent the afternoon over at Kevin's, with him and Dan, reading thru Death of a Salesman... which was...I dunno. Haven't sat down and let it run thru my brain long enough yet, haven't tried overly hard to glean much from it...it was interesting, inasmuch as my dad's a salesman (technically a salse rep, but close enough..he's not the annoying door-to-door type, tho ~_^), so I could relate to some of what Willy Loman was going thru...yet...I dunno. His psycho flashbacks kept getting us confused...plus, we only had three of us trying to read all the parts, and narrate, which led to some interesting bits...like, I'd been reading the part of Willy or somethin', and then Linda walks into the room to join him, and the guys obviously aren't gonna do her part... but it was fun.
Until we finished.
Then Dan decided to try playing the Survivor game on Kev's computer.
>X-( ...I HATE Survivor. And the game...gah, I'd thought nothing could be worse than the show! The game is so very poorly put together, the characters talk in circles and repeat themselves and contradict themselves, and all yer tryin' to do is convince them to get pissed at someone else, whether you lie to make them do so or whatever...seriously, it makes you be mean to people, promotes being mean to people!
Absolutely terrible...
So yeah. Then, came home, attempted to make French toast for dinner (which looked a little odd, but tasted fine)...checked on some scholarship stuff, realised it wasn't due 'til May, when we'd thought it was April..^_^...so decided to slack off some and play in photoshop a bit.
And then play Myst. ~_^
..'course, in the meantime, brother Matantis tormented sister Teraa for rather a while...he's got things set up so he can take control of Rhonda or Boquisha from Alice. Which is...yeah..little dangerous... Teraa was down here on Rhonda, then started complaining that the mouse was moving on its own...meanwhile, Matantis is in his room on Alice grinning evilly...yeah. And it got nasty after awhile, but it was amusing for me. ~_^