I was PRODUCTIVE today whaaaaaaat??? *laughs*
Woke up just before noon, hopped online, ordered my ticket for the Hanson show in Buffalo in October (more details in a sec, I realise I've not told like anyone about this yet *g*).
Tried for the Toronto ticket again, nothing, but trying later in the day I got it. However, the only delivery options were pick it up in Canada, or print it out. So I tried to print and it got pissy and wouldn't bring up the page for me. Went to class, came back, called customer service and they e-mailed it to me, printing it out now. ^____^
Called financial aid, asked about work-study, I'm eligible and the only thing they have open I can do right now is custodial work, but truth be told that's perfectly fine by me - later in the day, I don't have to deal with people. *G* (And Danielle did it last year and said it wasn't bad in the least, as long as you don't mind mopping. It occurs to me that I've never actually mopped a floor, but I have a general idea, learn fast, and am used to meticulous Dad-standards of clean, so s'all good. *g*) So I've an appointment on Monday to go deal with paperwork and get goin' on that I'LL HAVE MONEY WOOOO!!!!!

Which's good cos I just bought tickets for two Hanson shows. *giggles*

But yeah, the deal with that is... Girl who sits next to me in band, Jennifer, is a Hanson fan. Big-time. She's seen them like a million times and I guess's met them as well. *little mind blown* gheeee this's awesome. She all brought in pics to show me and stuff and yaaaaay they're so preeeeetty. *giggles* And still wonderful in general. So she asked if I was planning to see them cos they're on tour and coming to both Toronto and Buffalo. I was like dude, no, I had no idea... she thought she might have an extra ticket, and anyway there were still some left for Toronto and Buffalo went on sale just today, she's taking a bunch of people to go to the shows anyway would I be able to come?
Hellyeah!
October 10's the show in Toronto, October 11 Buffalo, smaller venues, somewhere around club-size looks like, all general admission, and Jen told me she always gets people up close. (She's rather a larger girl, she says she's bodyguard for everyone. *g*)
So... here we go 'round again...
^____^

..now..we've not told Dad about this *just* yet... *laughs* Think I'll wait 'til I've started working, cos then he'll know I *do* in fact have the money to do this and whatever and I'm being responsible etc. *g*

And it's raaaaaaaiiiinning and it's FRIDAY and I'm listening to the Chameleons' "Swamp Thing" *yet* again and dressed all in black with a bit of white and silver and I feel like a punk-high-school-Bono.
So life is good. ^_^

 
Point Depot show, 12-31-1989. "All Along the Watchtower". mind-blowing.
U2's awesome.
^_^

curled up with a few bootlegs to skip through and happily lost myself in a few songs...
and decided, despite my MAD exaustion, to draw. cos it calms me down makes me feel better and hey, at least I'd've gotten something from this night. (that's the nice thing about my darker moods - they tend to be very productive. *g*)
so the Bono in my little cd booklet was gorgeous. thus, I drew him. and since it's me, he got wings kinda. *laughs* still in progress, but here's a random preview just cos..
pic I was looking at (rotated to match what I was drawing) -=- my Bono (shrunk a bit for easier montitor-viewing)
he looks mad awesomer from a distance/shrunk a bit. *g* but not bad, considering..hadn't drawn straight from a photo in *ages*, probably good practise tho I still can never quite feel like it's wholly my own when I do so...

*yawns* fooking hell, am I wiped. sleeping now.
(so yeah, I'm feeling better..obviously..but I still mean every word of the prior post.....)

 
why am I everyone's center tonight? ..fuck this, I'm no sun, I'm a star burnt out right now, if I was ever even more than a pale moon.....
*sighs* not that I really mean that. My friends are so important to me, as is their state of mind, I care so much, I *want* them to come to me...
...only I wish I had more answers, could make more sense of this screwed-up world, to help them...but I'm so fucking clueless.....
so my apologies to everyone, to Megs for not being here, to my suitemates for not hanging out with them, to Erik for giving him only half my attention, to Laur for the same...
I wish I had more to give in return to you all.....

 
I really *hate* being this tired... I know I'm always tired, at least a little, but this is something else. Every day so far this week, I've woken up just so overwhelmingly tired, dark circles under my eyes..even with ten hours of sleep, I'm still like this. This can't be good. I don't even know... am wondering if I caught a cold from Haruna or summat, I've been coughing a little now and again.. hmm. Fux0r. >_<
Cos like, I'm only *just* keeping my eyes open right now, it's such a battle, and my head has that whole..not fuzzed-out feeling, but that feeling you have when you're sick and you've slept all night and are about to start in on sleeping all day cos you're so tired that's all you want to do...
Only *I* have class. 9_9

 
Sparkliness was overwhelming. Changed it. Current-thing will be back eventually (not like you'll miss it cos I hadn't updated it in, what, five months? *giggles*) Going to bed now. I think...

 
*bursts out laughing* HOOOOOOLY friggin' CRAP I *AM* a moron!!!!
This thing with the text going up too high on the background image?
Was *RIDICULOUSLY* easy to fix, all I had to do was stick a few line breaks in at the top of the cell!!!! wtf?! wow. *giggling*
(Now, the thing with the bg image repeating so soon.. either I need to make the image itself longer, which I oughta do anyway, maybe, only that's deadly on your loading time if you're still stuck on a modem-from-hell.. or I could watermark it, but that'd be retarded and we'd still get text over the bright-sparkly-bar-thing there. So, really, I need to sit down and play with tables and *twitch* possibly i-frames again *twitch*. *groan* evilevil...

Anyway... not done yet, at ALL, but I have, y'know, class tomorrow, so it's quittin' time for me...
Ehm.
It's MAD friggin' sparkley.
*giggles*
Not sure yet if it's going to *stay* that sparkley..this might be a bit much, even for me. *g*

 
ehhhhhhhh I'm changing my title-image and it scares me!!!! ..not the pic. *giggles* I mean, changing it. Cos it's not like I didn't *like* the old one...just that I outgrew the look of it, the font, the flatness. When I first made this layout, I wanted luminescence..I just didn't have the skillz to come as close to that as I can now.
Ehm.
I just have to watch that I don't make it *unreadable* on other monitors... -_-;;;;;

 
Ok y'know what's scary?
When you know *just* what song - out of several hundred - it's a live recording of, solely by the sound of the crowd.
(now, granted, I've had this particular recording of U2 covering "C'mon Everybody" for a few years, it was one of the first bunch I got off of Napster, as I recall.. but *still*.)
-_-;;;

 
Am re-touching some things that deeeefinitely have long-needed tending to. Don't attempt to follow links on the left there for awhile, I need to re-map the links now that I'm changing the images. But I'm cutting the actual visible size, and the filesize, so loading time'll be faster and there'll be a bit more room to read. Hopefully. (But I can't cut the filesizes a whole lot, cos then things aren't as crisp as they should be and that pisses me off. A lot. So there. *g*)

 

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oh dear *me*... *dies giggling* wow...

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*bursts out laughing* ehm... riiiiiight....
..well, it'd get a Bono's attention, anyway. *giggles*

k going to class now...... *g*

 
*smiles a little*
Alright, I feel a bit better...
Himeros: thanks for being the consios im strugaling to hear
(translation for those who have difficulty deciphering non-conventional spellers: "thanks for being the conscience I'm struggling to hear")
So at least I'm not, y'know, talking to a wall (at the moment), he's listening, and even considering, even if he's not going to quite follow what I suggest...

 
I *really* *HATE* bullshit.
Have I mentioned that?
Cos I really, really do.
It's fun enough to write, or play with, making up some crazy (yet viable) shite about a sculpture's meaning..don't get me wrong, I'm *good* at ganking stuff out of poetry or what have you..but a lot of that's *there*.
Mackie's bullshit is just mad fun cos it messes the fuck with your head, but it's not.. it's just a twisting of thinking, it's Screwtape onstage.
But the bullshit that I hate is people-bullshit, the crap we put each other through... the whole highschool rigmarole, one group against another, the pretty people and the scary people and the geeks, never being able to confront your secret crush, all of that... and it's funny cos it's such a cliche thing but it's still so true when you step back and look at it... politics and powerplay in offices, jobs, whatever, even just day-to-day stuff... things like what happened with Katie, it was 100% bullshit, she barely knew these girls they were just out for a fight... drinking and trying to fit in... hell, trying to fit in *period* requires so much fecking bullshit most times... the big house in the fucking subrubs and the suv and the bigscreen tv, and here I am back in my 10th grade rants again - I knew it at fifteen but people forget it so soon, if they ever knew it at all.....
And there's the more subtle sort of bullshit, where people play off of others to get to some end of their own..or even not to an end but just for the hell of it... and in fun, fine, alright, but... there comes a point of going too far. Manipulating, stretching a half-truth, leaving out a detail here and there...it's shit but it happens so often and no-one's even aware of it, sometimes not even the one doing it..... no wonder our world's fucked up.


In short, reasoning with Himeros is fecking IMPOSSIBLE sometimes. This boy needs to take philosophy sometime, he'd kick ass in there... 9_9

(and I admire his pursuit of human reaction and state and whatever...I truly, truly do. but I wish he didn't have to *fuck* with people so much to get there.....)

 
update: Katie was awake when I got out of the shower, talking to Erica and Britt, so I stayed there with them... it was three girls, apparently, who went after her and her sister last night, claiming Katie'd been saying all this shit about them - Katie *never* talks shit about *anyone*, she's the sweetest girl - she asked them to stop saying shit about her, and walked away..and they went after her, her sister got into it and tried to get them off Katie... they made it to the police station, the girls friggin' went after them *again* right outside the station... but two've been arrested, there's a warrant on the third, they went into the hospital but are alright apart from some bruises, they have a restraining order...
so it's alright, though now Katie has to deal with all the messy aftermath (i.e., parents and etc)..
...
...and there's nothing we can do really, just be here with Katie..but I think that's just what she needs, is friends and the safety of the group of us...
..and if Britt sees *any* of those girls she *will* kick the shit out of them, quite honestly. (and I can't say I wouldn't help..)

 
*sighs*
I'm so glad that I'm not about to start in on the drinking-thing.. cos some people can manage and not get too far in and are fine and stay safe...
...and then there are other cases.

Half of my suite went out to a party last night, Britt, Katie (not the one from home, suitemate Katie), Erica, and Jen.. Britt and Erica had a little beer apiece and were fine, Katie came back *drunk*, Jen didn't drink there but did when she got back (Erica's 21 and thus has a stash in her fridge) and wound up not even sure she could make it up to her top-bunk bed...
I had a bit of a twinge of wanting to go when they were all getting ready and primping and being excited, but it went away thankfully, and when they'd come back and I'd been filled in on the mostly non-events, I was glad I hadn't gone. Cos really.. I mean, even at that party at Karen's back senior year of high school, I knew everyone there and I *still* sat by the wall with a sketchbook. *laughs a bit*
Katie was spazzing out about this guy she (deservedly. from the stories that they told me) absolutely hates having transferred here... Britt was with her, trying to work her through it... Eventually things quieted down and I went back to talking with Megs all night, as usual. (*huuuuuuugs* thanks again for bringing me out of the stupidmood. and yay for awesome slashes. ^_^)

Woke up this afternoon, and Haruna filled me in on what'd happened since..then I went over to talk to Britt to get a little more......
Katie went *back* out last night, with her sister (who's 17)... and someone beat the both of them up, I don't know details at all but---
Their mom came and took her sister home, Katie's back here, finally sleeping...
Britt feels terrible cos she's the one who walked Katie downstairs to make sure she could figure out where her sister was, she let her go though she was *already* drunk... ...which she probably shouldn't have done, but no-one can ever see this sort of thing coming... and she says that if she finds out who did this, she *will* do something rash about it. and I don't blame her.
Katie's roomate Christina has been out this whole time - she made it into the sorority she and Katie tried for, Katie didn't, and that's what Katie's been kinda depressed over the past day or so (which's what I'd guessed)...

*sighs*

So guys.. be *careful*... and stay safe......