hand holding - you like to be in constant physical contact with your special someone but you don't want to take things too quickly.


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*half-laugh* well.. "like" and "want" don't always tie in to what happens, but... ideally, I think, yeah... idk about the constant bit, I know I do need my own space, but then.. have I ever had a real opportunity to find any of this out?

 
Anyway.. happy thanksgiving, all.
Mine's been kinda ehh, but whatever.. went to the grandparents' with my siblings and my mom, had an awesome dinner, so that was all fine...
just, I don't know. family gatherings get quieter and just..less exciting, each year. not that I mind going to them, I like my family (when my brother's not being an ass..which he hasn't been lately), and whatever.. I guess we just have less in common, less to talk over..
or it's just that none of us talk very much, with the major exception of grandma. *g*
Maybe it's just cos I'm a little tired and have a headache coming on.. I don't mean this to be a downer, I just...
I'm glad that huge family get-togethers still happen, seeing and catching up with relatives you've not seen since Christmas or the previous Thanksgiving, just being together and everything else.. I've not been a part of one myself since...since having Thanksgiving at my Aunt Kathy's sort of stopped happening, a few years ago, I'm not even sure how many... three, at least, probably more... but I know the thing hasn't gone away from the world, and that makes me happy.

But I've so much to be thankful for, and first on my list *are* my friends.. all of you, whether I talk to you for hours every day or haven't in months, you've all meant, and continue to mean, so much to me.. it's you who've made me who I am, who keep me being myself, who give me strength, who I look up to..
And there are all the other things, having a home that I can come back to, food, clothing, a family (fractured and distant as it sometimes feels), my sister whom I love, dearly, despite our occasional scraps and the fact that she's going to gag when she reads this *g*, being able to go to college - I love it there, I really do, Britt and I were talking the other night about how perfect an environment it is for us, we can be on our own but without having *quite* all the responsiblities and cares, and still learning, learning the things we *want* to learn...
I've had so many wonderful people in my life, I really have, teachers and friends, and bands and artists..
And I know I've been blessed with talents and everything else, I just wish I knew what I'm to do with the bits of everything that I have..but I trust that Someone will let me know when the time comes.
So despite my bit of an off-mood, I thank God for all He's given me, cos really, truly, it's so much more than I could ever have asked for.....

 
O____________O
NO fecking WAY.
That was a different version!
not one I've heard! there was a Micky-yell at the end that I've NEVER heard.
..ok *that's* gonna bug me....

 
omfg that's it I am SO getting itunes when I get back on campus! radio stations, hi. dude.
I'm on this one..uhh.. "Technicolor Web of Sound" (under 'classic rock'). 60s psychadelic stuff, I'm like ooo score...
I tuned in as a song faded..and then!!!
Monkees' "Mary, Mary"!!!!!!
<3 <3 <3 <3 <3
*spazzes and dies*
<3

(on top of that, one of the first things I heard whilst poking around the ambeient category was a Brian Eno piece, 'Prophecy' from Dune. sweeeetness..)

 
*sighs*
I should sleep. Have been semi-bored for hours, am tired, and am probably to be at my grandparents' tomorrow by probably like noon...
But tantis and himeros came in about two hours ago...with two girls in tow.
They've been up in matt's room the whole time, except for himeros coming downstairs, with a few fish in a bag set in a fishbowl, asking if we knew what to do with them. fortunately, merani did, but.. anyway yeah.

..ok take that back, one girl just left, I think. Said hi and introduced herself as she went by.
So I should really be good and not pass judgement on people, really I shouldn't.. *half-laughs* but it's so hard sometimes... I know what my brother and his friends are like, I know the sort of girl that'll probably be around them. (I also know that tantis and himeros are, at heart, far better than they would seem by their associates..but that's another story.)
k nm she's back anyway. *laughs* seems nice enough.. *shrugs* still.

But yeah.. set me into somewhat of a mental-thing, but it's utterly silly and I know it so I won't go into it here. (tho megs, I'm e-mailing you cos I always do, and yeah. *laughs and huuugs*) Anyway, yeah, whatever. Worked on my abandoned-angel drawing for class for something like an hour..still have a semi-distressing ways to go on it. And I *can't* fecking draw rock, I don't know why I thought that might've changed..ah well. Will grab a giant random rock from my room and study and draw and figure it out, will be good for me anyway. *g* And maybe that'll help make what's supposed to be a stone sculpture look less disturbingly human.. it's all a sort of reddish-sepia, that's not helping, nor is the fact that I might've actually gotten proportions pretty right for once. *laughs* But we'll see how it all works out in the end..I've a fair ways to go with getting the things fully drawn in, to say nothing of touch-up and detail-work. The Mackie drawing, btw, is pretty much done. I think. I should go in and smooth over some spots that got rubbed away and things, and I'll see if I fixed the nameless-bishie-demon-guy's neck-area properly, but..
This is where I wish I had a digital camera, cos these things are 18"x24", faaaar too large for my scanner. which would utterly butcher the colours (esp. on the Mack one) anyway. :p

For anyone curious, btw, Himeros.. yeah. *half-laughs* We talked on aim for quite awhile the night I stayed over at Mom's (Saturday..plans changed from what I'd posted that day), and he was being all sweet and just.. he missed me, said so, and it was clear anyway.
He first tells me this three months after I've left?
He's been over a fair bit with tantis, so I've seen him in brief spurts and whatever, chatted a bit, he looked at the drawings I brought back (tho he didn't say much :p ..he did say he liked the bit of the mack-fic I had as an away, tho), stopped down here to play with mel's strobe light for awhile last night and stuff... IMed me for rather awhile, came downstairs to get food, then on his way back up, walked over to me and half-hugged me (I was wrapped up in a blanket, so leaned a little into him but didn't move my arms or anything).. and leaned in to kiss me. I turned my head to ensure he only got my cheek.. then he went back upstairs.

Don't worry, I'm not about to let anything happen.. *laughs* certainly not this break, it's half-over and it was only a week long to begin with, but.. unless some things change (which they haven't yet).. no. I'm not gonna go through that all over again, if he barely talked to me these past few months, and only now that I'm home decides he missed me and whatever.. he couldn't've missed me that much. Despite what my body may think, my mind and heart know they need more than that, far more.
It's someone to *love* me that I'm so hungry for..not someone to randomly snog me. Not that that's bad, but.. *laughs* in the right context, there has to be something behind it, there really does. And Himeros cares, but..not enough for what he'd do with me. :p

..ok merani might be right, i-tunes has its cool aspects. listening to a german indie station. I like. ^_^

 
*laughs* About half the actual pictures of the doll I have, her hair's semi-parted to the sides like mine.. but other pics show there *was* supposed to be a bow, it's supposed to be in a ponytail on the top. (see?) Awesome. Cos I *do* remember putting it that way, and it makes sense, as all her yarn-type hair sticks straight up and doesn't really like going other ways. *giggles*

omg and they have glo worms!!! *laughs* I had like, three. and a turtle, which, oddly enough, this site hasn't got..hmmm......

yes I'm a dork. *giggles* shush and let me re-live my childhood, only with a greater appreciation for the art of it. *g*

 
Ok dude.. it's really awesome stumbling across things online that you have vague memories of but didn't remember names of and things.. and Megs, I believe you *did* tell me that Little Blossom was what they were called, but I'd forgotten again. *giggles* Found 'em again.
But dude.. it starts getting weird when you find things you remember OWNING on collectors' sites! *laughs*
Scroll down a ways here, that barrette-holder? I *had* that! (wonder if I still do. that'd rock. cos it's *cute*. and it'd really rock now that I know it's a barrette-holder - I remember being rather confused by it when I was little! *laughs*)

And yes, I'm sitting here surfing thru Strawberry Shortcake sites and the like.. I'm in love with the character designs, alright? *g* Little Blossom I need to look up more of too.. and omfg they're selling what I *think* is the same Baby Brite doll I have, but there's no pict--
*lightbulb*
*google image-searches to find out just how her baby brite's hair is *supposed* to be, as it's been rather a loooong time..*

 
ananda, you hail
from fredonia and you love
those three boys, hanson.


Lily and her accidental haikus... you're awesome dude. *g*

 


..if you try this thing, skim through what the story behind it is..this guy was friggin' nuts. talk about too much time on your hands...fascinating how it works out in the Bible, tho.