You know, this whole being the oldest sister thing has really soaked into my psyche. I'm constantly playing the big-sister to people I know. This may be partly because I do find myself hanging around people younger than me - coworkers, lots of my friends in high school, etc. But whether I'm listening to one of the girls at work talking about her boyfriend, or one of the boys talking about some social drama, or just now, talking with DJ, who said he had planned to go to sleep, and I know from Tom that the kid hardly ever sleeps, so I get all "You goose, you're sleep-deprived often enough as it is. GO SLEEP!" and "But I'll be good and go write, if you'll be good and go sleep."

Tom thinks it's all a mothering-complex, but I think it's more of a big-sister thing. Either way, I'm such a gooshy little mother-hen sometimes it's ridiculous. I just see these little kids with problems and I have the psychological impulse to scoop them up, pat their heads, put them to bed and feed them soup and/or cookies.


...and then at the same time, aaany time I'm with a group of people, I wind up hanging around the outskirts of the group, just kind of watching and soaking things in, without actively participating much. (Take a look at any pictures other people post to facebook of me, and you'll see it.) Oh, contradiction-laden personality.

Labels: being social, navelgaze

 
I was going to be all ambitious today, given that my days off are going to be farther between for the next week or so (and my schedule extra-screwy, with Tom on day shifts for two weeks, and me on day shifts on weekends). I'm a smidge ahead on the novel, but I'd like to get a bit more ahead than I am..

But I'd left some notes around facebook, and DJ responded to them, and next thing I know we've been talking for an hour. Half on my wall, half on Tom's. (Tom may very well never notice this, I don't think he's done anything on facebook since he made the damn profile. Unless of course he gets updates emailed to him...in which case he's going to come home and flip out because there are like 30 posts to his wall. lmfao.) He's a very cool person to talk to - the same kind of nice, open, rambling conversations I miss from college. (And lord knows Tom's talked to me about DJ anough that I feel like I've known the kid as long as he has! Which feels much longer than it is, because the two of them really do think a lot alike.)


i'd rather laugh at everything, then be angry ever

(I am posting that here, because it really struck me, it's an absolutely wonderful outlook to have. I'm a little jealous that he manages to actually live by it as well as I think he does.)

Labels: being social, friends, life in general