Which Angel would you be? By Angel Falls

Take the test here!! Made by Jenna and Robbie.

...awww....was hoping for Esca...-_-,......dude, but Esca's a possibilty, at least! Yay! ^_^ (Escaflowne tends to get bit neglected..an' it may not be *the* greatest anime series ever, but it's still pretty good...an' it's the show that first got me into anime, so--!) ..but Sailor Moon...I think I like the mangas better'n the show (what little I've seen of either)...the mangas are *gorgeous*...

 
..be warned..this's long...but, like I said, I want to remember tonight...
So yeahhh...
..concert...awesome...
Just before we're supposed to go on, Mead tells us all to start looking for a yellow folder..with trumpet music in it.
*groooaannnn*...blasted trumpets...they're stupid. They really just..
...
...but I could rant on brass stupidity for a very long time, and I *do* have to get up in the morning...
So, we go out for jazz band. And I don't have a stand (so I got to go off and find one..this's *really* helping my nervousness--!) And the mics don't work. So, Mead gets to YELL his opening comments out into the auditorium..(which worked just fine, he's used to screaming at the top of his lungs ^_^)...but yeah. So I don't think I was heard a whole lot..cos flute? versus, y'know, trumpets saxes trombones drums etc...yeah. Flute loses. ('Cept for the end of "Into the Mood", when we play it, cos trumpets suck, an' that's *all* me an' Daffy! Woo! ^_^)...but it was quite alright that I wasn't especially heard, cos I botched up my solos..which I kinda figured I'd do, I'm really not used to the jazz improving thing, not having done it at *all* prior to this year...I'm better at making up random melodies in minor or semi-minor keys than I am at jazz-ish stuff in blues scales etc...'specially when, y'know, I've only got a certain number of measures that I've gotta fit things in? Yeah. Not so cool... ~_^
Meanwhile, Daf ROCKED. (As always.) Honestly, truthfully Daf, I'm not at all just saying this: you're AWESOME. You *really*, really are...and I wish I had better words for it, but...maybe this'll help make my point: I was just listening to a recording of "Jump Jive and Wail"? Like, a real version? And you sounded just as good as the sax on the recording. (If not better.) ^_^
..really, Daf..I used to seriously like, *not like* the sound of the sax...and it's really from hearing you ROCK so AWESOMELY on it that I actually *like* the bloody instrument now! ^_^ (Ok, so you're on tenor, not alto, but still...same type of thing, y'know?..err, I mean, sorta, but...tenor's obviously better, of course. ~_^)
And jazz band went pretty well...I so LOVE the drum part to "Zoot Suit Riot". I mean, I love drums any which way, but that opening drum bit? ..gahhh...(tho I think it was better the way he *was* playing it, not the way the trumpet guy told him yesterday...it was all nice and complex and *full*..sounded..quite like Lar, esp. early on...*sheepish grin*)
After jazz band, we went off to go get drinks of water..and then we didn't feel like sneaking back into the auditorium during Symphonic Band, so a few of us just hung out in the hall, me and Daf and Calypso and Pete Myers and various others... (Pete *so* looks like Adam Clayton, I *still* think...'cept cuter, imo..~_^) So that was fun...and Symph. Band actually sounded quite good - Mandy Harkness did a *great* job conducting, I think, she picked a *mega* long piece, and they sounded great on it.
Then we were back on. Yay, Wind Ensemble!!! ^_^
"E.T."...that was definitely the best we've ever played it. A.J.'s still pissed that we played that instead of "Westside Story", but..I liked "E.T." a lot better. The movie semi-creeped me out when I was little, but the song...wow...awesome stuff, esp. playing it. ('Course, then too, I had a nice solo in the beginning..easy, and very nicely in my really good range..^_^) And we missed some runs here and there etc., but overall it went quite well.
"Hoedown" (aka the beef commercial..or, if you're in Canada, the butter commercial *g*)... was prolly the best we'd played that, too. Which is to say, still only about quarter speed..and the trumpets botched up a decent deal, but..this is nothing new. ~_^ ...and I'll admit, there were places in that song that I had a lot of trouble playing, too..an' I'm on flute, I'm *used* to 16th notes, trumpets aren't so much.. But we didn't *entirely* fall apart on the weird, empty parts, which was good.
Then the "clarinet choir" did their thing..which was actually very very nice. Clarinet's never been my fav instrument at all, I just don't care much for the sound a lot of times...and that was defintely an odd little song...but it was VERY well played. ^_^ ...I could even make out what Kevin was playing..and he sounded *good*. (No, I'm not just biased..well, I prolly am, kinda, but..! He *did* sound good, really.)
..and the whole time they were playing...I knew my concerto was up next. And I'm sitting there, looking around the band for support, everyone's telling me good luck, I'll do fine...thank you, guys...and I closed my eyes and prayed that I wouldn't mess up...so much riding on this...not just my own face, but the whole *band*... ... ...good thing that didn't occur to me 'til just now--!
And then they were done, Mead babbled on for a bit...and then introduced me.
And I got up, took my stand, music, flute, and self out in front of the band, a bit to Mead's right (so I could see him for tempo changes and coming back in after the cadenza).
And I prayed again...
And they started the piece (it's "Concertino", by Chaminade, btw), those two measures of intro were a little rough, but not too bad.. and I came in, and - I wasn't nervous! I just focused on the music...and yeah, I botched up a few times, screwed up some runs and things, esp. at the tempo change, where it goes a lot faster, the...ok, singing the part won't work here, but--! Yeah. That part. But it didn't go too badly, partly cos I could kinda see Mead, and was able to pick up the tempo. ..and runs, no-one in the audience'd notice if I messed up anyway.
Got to the cadenza...and partway into it, I got nervous, my hand started shaking...which was bad. But not as bad as it used to be..I managed to get it mostly under control, kept playing, it wasn't the best I'd ever ever played it, I don't think, but it was alright. And the band came back in, and I relaxed a bit... 'til the end. The ending..is frickin' PSYCHO. And I messed up a few notes towards the end, and I think I miscounted the last few measures, but by that point, it no longer mattered...
I did it.
It's done.
I never have to play it again!!!!!! Woooo!!!!!!!! *laugh*..no, really, I love the song, but it *is* a relief to have it over with!
..and everyone clapped cheered etc. (I had my own li'l sections of cheerleaders out there, Melinda Holly and Laur were right up front, Heather and James were a few rows back..)...and Mead looked at me, and he was smiling..and I was just laughing...(I do that a lot when I don't know what to do, I think..when I'm really happy, beyond words, I laugh..do that on roller coasters, too. *shrug* *g*)...and I sat down, they were still clapping, Mead had me get up and bow again...it was just...wow, thinking back on it...but I was soooo happy when I'd finished...
...and then Mead intro'd all the seniors (me first, unfort., cos of my bleedin' last name!)...and he said Bono right, which was GOOD, cos he'd been threatening to say it wrong..and I was gonna kill him if he did... (I'd said my career goal was to be a rock star, and my fav band memory was being Bono on the Annapolis trip.) And we all went up there, and they gave us flowers...which was sweet...and like I said before, had I let myself think about it, I woulda been in tears...but I was too busy listening to what Mead said about everyone else, and laughing at the memories...
And we sat back down, at last.
And played "Africa". (I forget the full title..but that's the imp. part? *g*)
And it was AWESOME...I mean, the song is just INCREDIBLE any which way...and the percussion section'd written an intro, which was awesome, and once they got thru that, there's this huge bass drum roll, and then BAM, trumpets are in, huge chords...(once in awhile, the brass sections are actually worth keeping ^_^).
It was just...HUGE. Which is exactly what it should've been...and I was so very proud of our band, in awe, I think, of the sound we were putting out...cos it was just so very incredible...
...awesome...fell apart a bit in the middle-ish area, I think I played my solo wrong, but it's one of those ones where if you *do* play it wrong, it's *impossible* to tell, cos it's this weird (but cool) li'l thing..only a few measures, anyway.
And at the end of it, I was getting chills, and...man...just...beyond words...
And people clapped forever, standing ovation...
And then we launched right into "Stars and Stripes Forever". Which we also played the best we ever have..
And the audience was clapping along and all..it was great...
And me, AJ, and Adrienne got up an' did the bloody picc thing, we'd gotten it memorized..and we played it *nearly perfect*. Woo!!! We were actually *in tune*! Three piccolos, bleedin' in *tune*!!!!! (Unless you've tried this, you have *no* idea how *impossible* that is!!) And we got *all* of it..each of us slipped a bit here and there, and I was the only one to play that one evil measure we could never get, but..man. Awesome.
And we finally left the stage, it'd felt like we'd been there forever, I don't even know how long it was, maybe an hour? I have no idea...felt like forever, like no time at all...and us three picc players were jabbering about how well it'd gone, and Daf caught up with me, so did everyone else, and...man. It was just...awesome, we were all on SUCH a high after that, it was THE best band concert, EVER.
..and I met up with everyone, and Heather got me a rose..thank you..and my grandparents had gotten me flowers...and Dad was just so very proud of me...(I think he flattened my nose, he hugged me so tight! *g*)...and Laur hung out for a bit, and Daf and I were there..and so was Calypso.
And she told him that she likes him.
...did I tell you how proud I am of you, Daffy??? ^_^...that really, took a LOT of guts...I'm so happy for you, tho, you have no idea, you were finally able to do it!...
...and we gave Daf a ride home, she and I and Calypso and my mom were like, some of the very last ones there, we didn't get home 'til about 10.30...
...and Mom dropped us off...and I just went over and gave Daf the biggest hug, she gave me one back...I've still got a few months, but it's starting to feel like the end of all this...and I don't want it to end, I love my friends so very very much, and band, and even the school..in an odd sort of way..
..but I should go, I've still gotta get up in the morning, an' here it's 1am already an' I'm tired...

...thank you, everyone...I just pray I can remember even half of the joy I felt tonight...

 
..ok...this's really bugging me...Billy Bob Thorton's on Leno now, an' he's got a black wool hat on..an' I keep seeing him outta the corner of my eye and thinking it's Edge.
-_-; (...yes, I'm obsessed. ^_^)

 
*fangirlish SQUEEEE!*...I <3 Ewan McGregor. ^_^ ...wish I coulda seen Star Wars tonight, but..too late..no-one else'd be up with me that late..seein' it tomorrow night, I think. ^_^
...but he's on Leno right now...*siiigh*..an' it's great, cos he's talking about some of his other movies, stage things and such...and I *know* about all this stuff!
...hehe...it'd slipped my mind, he likes motorcycles, too..just like Lar. ~_^...
...but yeah...mentioned "Pillow Book" (which I've seen...ehrm..*blush*..it went..yeah..*liiiiittle* bit overboard--! -_-;;;)...talked about attempting to streak across stage in "What the Butler Saw", freaking out "old powdery ladies"..*giggle*...tha's great (yay for rebel-children! ^_^)...and then one time he slipped - remember, he's entirely naked - and like, flew across the stage, landing on his back, and just...gahhh....*will have interesting dreams tonight!*
..oo! He's back on! *scrambling off*
Ok. Back. *siiiiiigh*...he's so pretty....his hair looks a wee bit odd just now, but he's scrapped the beard from Attack of the Clones, which's good. It's ok, but... he's prettier without it.
..and his voice...*melt*.....
..I am *so* moving to Scotland, or Ireland, or even just England.....
But so far he's named two new movies of his, one of which prolly won't make it to theatres here (which is nothing new!)...both sounding a little sketchy, but most of his movies are...^_~ But in any case, he's got new stuff coming, which's always cool. (Dude, I still gotta see Black Hawk Down...)
But yeah. Enough fangirl droolings....getting back to wherever I'd been going--!

 
Wow.
Tonight...was the best band concert *ever*. It really, truly was...
...ok, granted, at the time, I was quite nervous through most of it, cos I had a solo in *almost everything we did*...(and I'm still trying to absorb and make sense of that...trying to comprehend that so much of that was *me*...cos people'll tell me "oh, you're so good!", but oftentimes I only half believe them..cos I mean, from my pov, A.J.'s just as good a flute player as I am, *better* in a lot of ways..)
...but it was awesome, incredible...and you'll forgive me, but I'm gonna have to go through it *all*, so I never forget...
..Daf, yer right, there *must* be something about the date...May 16...
..see, it was five years ago today that I moved back up here...five years ago that I last looked around my huge, nice lawn in Perry...five years ago that I looked around my now-empty bedroom, and finally realised: I was leaving...leaving all that I'd known since second grade (I was in seventh at the time)...and I cried...
...and tonight...I nearly cried again...nearly cried when I'd gotten through my concerto, in relief, I think..and kind of excitement - it wasn't perfect, not nearly so, but overall..I think I played it well... nearly cried looking at my fellow seniors onstage, realising that we'd all be leaving, going our seperate ways, so very soon, and this was our last (big, main, formal) band concert..but I halted that train of thought, I don't want to deal with it yet, I wanted to enjoy tonight... nearly cried during "Africa", cos playing that... ... ...it was incredible. It just...you know how a song can just, *hit you*, and there aren't even words to describe it, but it moves you so very deeply? Yeah. That happened a couple of times in that song tonight... nearly cried as the concert ended, in happiness... ...nearly cried after that, cos Daffy was about crying..cos us seniors are leaving, and..just... ... ... Daffy...Laur, too...guys, how...I don't know what I'm gonna do without you guys...Heather and Kevin and the rest too, but especially the two of you... ...
Oo. You'll excuse me... Ewan's on. ^_~ (Not that he's more important than you guys!!! ~_^)

 

Which era in time are you?
Woo! ^_^ ...perfect timing, too...was "Decades Day" for seniors, I did my hippy thing..was fun. ^_^

take the antisocial test.
and go to mewing.net. because laura's feeling social.
...awwww...darnit...I think I'm a *bit* more antisocial'n *that*! ~_^
...ah well...am so very very tired, to the point where I don't think I'm even gonna bother spewing out my latest load of teenage angst...
..tho I will say, that parents can be a royal pain in the arse.
..and Laur..thanks..for lending me Mere Christianity, for helping me thru all this carp..even if it's just by letting me know there's someone else in the same place as me (or, at least, something rather like it), it helps...

 
I just figured it out...was wondering why everything had to hit me all at once...the blasted love-triangle, projects, crunch-time on APs and on scholarships, end of the year, finding out last-minute about all senior/graduation details, Heather's troubles, concerts, all these little frustrating stressful things...and the incessent lectures we've gotten all weekend, my brother failing gym...everything...
...I just finished C.S. Lewis's Mere Christianity.
...Satan always strikes around the time of an especially religious experience, right?
Hah. Blasted demons. Go back to the Hell from whence you came, I've got you figured out now...
...doesn't mean I'm *happy* yet, but..it's an okay depressed...a mood I can (maybe hopefully *finally!*) finish "Until the End of the World" in. ~_^
...so long as I can keep this in mind.....
(Thank you, Screwtape Letters!)

 
... ok, that was a little creepier'n usual.....it's been a *long* day, and not an especially good one..*sigh*...but I'm not getting into it again, I'd be up another hour, and I've still got to study etc...yeah, on top of that, most of the day was spent drawing Macphisto, listening to Achtung Baby (I've listened to "Love is Blindness" countless times the past few days..not even sure why..it just..*works*..), working on "Until the End of the World", and re-reading The Screwtape Letters...what do you expect?..*sigh*...

 
..I just had the longest post ever...and LOST IT.
And I'd just finished thanking God for blogger, it's such a nice convenient way to get these things out and off yer chest...
Damn you, unreliable connections and glitchy technology. May Macphisto enjoy himself tonight...

 

I fancy Elves.
The only one that will ever look good in tights. Oh yea.
Which culture from Middle-Earth do you fancy?
By Hannah and Dani
^_^....<3 Legolas....
*yawn*...so tired...just got back from mom's, I frickin' dozed off!...but I did manage to finish her Mother's Day present - a drawing of David Bowie (circa Ziggy Stardust-era). With orchids. ^_^ ..actually came out pretty well, considering I hadn't worked with charcoal really in awhile...

...gotta change my love of the moment again...I'm in love with Bono (*again*!) just now...this's partly left over from emersing myself in Bono-ness on his birthday...but he's wonderful anyway...he has...*the* most incredible voice ever...gorgeous...the most expressive beautiful powerful sexy thing I've ever heard...*siiigh*... ^_~
..and his lyrics...you've no idea how much I wish I could write like that...they're so abstract, but paint such a clear picture...*wistful*