You scored as Donatello. You are intelligent and peaceful...maybe you should consider going into a different line of work. Even though you are friendly, you should try to fit in with other more often. Donatello 79% April O'Neil 57% Mater Splinter (The Rat) 54% Leonardo 46% Michaelangelo 39% Raphael 32% Which teenage mutant ninja turtle are you? created with QuizFarm.com

heeeeeeh. *giggles merrily* yaaaaay~ My fav at the time was Michaelangelo, my brother's was Donatello.. watching some eps again a year or two back, I was leaning toward Raphael, but maybe Leonardo.. I think this's probably most fitting though. Yay geekdom! \0/

...

*now has an urge to watch tmnt and hasn't got cds with* >_< bah. *giggles and heads off to winmx*

 
My cat...was garbage-picking.

*giiiggles, buries face in hands*

I was standing around, on the phone with Erik, when I spotted Curi with his paws on the garbage can in the kitchen, pawing around and poking his head in. I yelled at him, to no effect. Wound up having to pull him away..like, *really* pull him back, he wouldn't let go...
...and he dragged with him the box of borderline-bad cream cheese I'd thrown out yesterdayish.
And wouldn't let go.

Finally got it away from him, tossed it back in, beyond his immediate reach, and had to stand guard in front of the garbage can, 'til my phone conversation was finished and I could take out the trash.

My cat..is insane. *giiiiggling*

 
^_________________________________________^

*blissful siiiiiiigh*

I can't begin to explain how happy I felt just now, standing at the top of the stairs, sorting through some things.. and hearing Edgeguitar echoing up the stairway, ringing so perfectly in the air.....


I'd been trying to sort out where htdaab fit into my conception of U2 and U2 albums...but I didn't need to, it's found its own place there already. *smiles warmly* When it got to City of Blinding Lights, it took me so quickly to a place and memory and emotion... it's already a part of me. <3



*is now in a mood capable of properly appreciating the TICKETS TO MSG OCT 7!!! that came in the mail yesterday* *takes them reverently in hand and gaaaaaaaazes, slowly letting it sink in...*
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I FOUND IT I FOUND IT I FOUND IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! MY HTDAAB CD AND BOOK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

they were in a shoebox in my room, which I'd thought was empty but actually had htdaab and dress shoes and the candles I'd thought I'd lost. *giiggles, shaking head*

EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE I FOUND IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HELLO, HELLO, HOLA! WE'RE AT A PLACE CALLED VEEERTIGOOOOO~!!!! *dances around the living room happily, the album craaanked on the old stereo*


*ignoring Curious laying his ears back at me*

 
*slow, deep breath* Doing better now... Erik and Britt invaded and took me out for awhile earlier, which was a much-needed break.. and I've now, at long last, actually been in a porn store. *laughs* A bit anticlimatic for me, I think, really.. but I was amused by how at ease Britt and I were amidst bad porn videos and walls of vibrators and bondage toys. *giiiggles* wheee.
Got back around 8.30, since then, have just been sitting around quietly, poking around websites to amuse myself, talking to people on aim... Megs cheered me up just by being here and talking and having lots of cute Billie pictures. :) (*snuggles* and I hope you're feeling better, sweetheart.. if there's anything I can do, please let me know..) Haruna and I've been chatting for a few hours, and Tom came online, which helped so much.. just talking to people and keeping my mind off of my brooding's been good.
Stupid websites are also phenomenally helpful. *giggles* exhibit a - exhibit b
And I found Dragostea Din Tei for Stepmania over on Bemani. ^__________________^ AND Mysterious Ways! and some mix of Vertigo with something else.. aaaand..something else cool but I forget what. Oh yeah! More songs from Gravitation, which's good. <3
Reading comics is also helpful. Debating whether to pop in a Star Trek tape or read more Superman to lull me to sleep...


Tom: does it show that i am learning about quantum mechanics in order to get my mind off of not being near you?

*giggles merrily and ADORES* ..he'd been telling me that apparently we *have* managed to transport stuff, like on Star Trek, which is far too fecking awesome. (Only like, molecules, but stiiiilll. *bounces*) And he's adorable.


Tom: omg. im not really that bad. it cant sound as bad as that... wow...*sigh* it is... I am reading about molecular structure on my spring break. That has to be breaking one of the Ten Commandments
Me: noooo... ^___________^ though it probably is a top ten sign of utter geekdom *grins and kisses*
Me: luckily for you, I like geeks :-) *snugglefies*
Tom: oh yeah...you like it when i talk science to you dont you, you bad series of proteins!


..Megs? I officially, in (semi)public view, take back all the teasing I ever gave you and Edgelet. By like a lot. *giggles and nuzzles ingratiatingly* Geek boys r0x0r. (*nuzzles* and you know I always thought you and Edge were/are the cutest ever, even when I was teasing. *smiles and snuggles* so sweet and loving, it makes me happy. ^_^ ..also, I should've taken it back long ago anyway, cos..Edgelet's really sweet. and cute. and..and yeah. *grins shyly, snugglefies* y'know. ^_^)


mmnph. but yeah. time to call it quits with Haruna on aim, and get some sleep.. I'm exhausted, and need to be able to get back to work tomorrow..... *huuuuuuuuuuuuuuugs* to you all, for being so good to me. :)

 
*laughs faintly, shaking head* You know it's not a good sign when even getting U2 tickets in the mail hardly manages to lift your mood by any measurable amount......

 
So it's Tom'n'my one month anniversary today...

...and I'm missing him way too much. *sighs*

I think that's the underlying reason I'm feeling so bleh today, though there's lots helping. I'm tired, it's unbelievably grey and drab out, snowing too little for it to be pretty but enough to reinforce the fact that it's still winter, I've impossible amounts of things to still go through, I feel like I've made no progress, yet I'm exhausted from all I've done... and looking through old things is fun, yeah, but at the same time.. I can't begin to count the number of awards I've found, positive comments from teachers, straight-A report cards, all these signs of all these accomplishments I managed in the past...and what have I got to show for the last few years? I feel so much smaller than I was..
Again.
I thought I was done with this, I've worked it through before.. but now it's back, even in things like that poem, not in the actual words but in the meaning, the boldness and determination to change the world, to accomplish something.. I've lost that, to a large degree. I worry now about conveying an emotion or a sense of history or some heart-tugging story, not about bringing to the attention of the world all the things that need fixed... To an extent, it's probably a narrowing of goals that needs to happen, finding what I *can* do, and focusing on that, but..
I don't feel like the person I once wanted to be.
I know there are so many things that have changed for the better in me..and for the most part, I really do like who I am, and what I do, but... it doesn't feel like enough.

*sighs, shaking head* I'm sure this'll pass, always does, don't worry too much about me.. I'm sure I'll feel better before long, just a random bout of angst that was probably overdue anyway.

 
Finding all sorts of stuff, cleaning and sorting and packing...

My writing has come a LONG way. ^^;; Still though, there are bits I still quite like... This was written..I'm assuming in 11th grade, as I used it for an essay in Klumpp's class, on generational gaps. Not sure if we were told to write our own poem, or were just given it as an option.. overall, it's a little bleh, a blatent descendant of my "rants" from around that time, but there are some really cool bits in it:


                Generation

                                                         all we are is cultural jetsam
                                              is all that's just just cultural jetsam?

We try to put the pieces together
to make ourselves a whole
from all these disjointed bits of the past
Ritual, racial memories and prejudices
Just accept what we're told is right and wrong
Never even considering deciding for ourselves

We weren't allowed to.

Expected to just accept the old ideas as "right"
there's nothing new
it's just the old reborn.

New things can't be trusted
they haven't yet seen the test of time
they can't be equal to the past.

Shards of the shattered past colliding with,
shredding our vision of the future
What went before constantly sneaking up and
tearing our dreams from before our eyes.

It's never been done
It can't be done.


...how do you know?

You couldn't do it, didn't believe it
But I will.
I may be no more than a madman's collage of your memories and ancestral rites
only a manifestation of all that you have told me

but

I am the future, it's clay in my sculptor's hands, I can change the world, mold my thoughts into reality...
I can even change you.



The one idea in there, that there's nothign really new, is one that's still kicking around inside my head...

On a related note, will get back to updating my lj, once I get near a working scanner again. ^^;

 
O...mg.

And we thought OUR star wars lego sex was bad?

ACTUAL Lego porn!

(Though ours was still awesome, guys. Should've taped it. Still got the pics of the storm trooper orgy though, s'all good. XD )



Also, this should be the official CCHS SFE shirt.

*gigglefit!*

 
I have had the Numa Numa song in my head FOR OVER TWENTY-FOUR HOURS NOW.

@_@;



Meanwhile.. THIS has got to be one of the hottest things EVER. If I ever wind up putting together my own comp from scratch...I totally think I'd do that for the tower, that's fecking awesome. <3

 
WARNING: goosh ahead

This boy never ceases to amaze me. ^________^ I knew he could cook, but holy crap, he made this huge-ass meal for like ten people, like a *full* meal, and everything... And now he's trying to figure out what to make *me*, like as a full meal, and... *laughs softly, shaking head* And I'm too overwhelmed just now to be coherent. He wants to make up for the fact that he couldn't afford to send lilies to my house for our anniversary (which's tomorrow).. but even just knowing what he'd planned turned me to goop. *giggles*

not used to counting down the days until vacation *ends*...but how can only three days've gone by so far? *sigh*...

..and not even gonna *think* about how many days it is 'til I see Megs. :\

 
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, DAFFY! \0/

 
can't stop. so addicting. omfg.

I can sing an entire song in Romanian. (Still looking at the lyrics, but I can pronounce and sing along with nearly all of it now.)

I REALLY need to go the fuck to sleep. *giiiiggles and hides*

 
Hmmm. So apparently I missed all this on the first go 'round..or it just hadn't gotten 'round to me yet, I think it's still goin'. *giggles* NUMA NUMA! I'd heard the song from Mel before, and Britt'd found a different video to it...which I'm still trying to find just cos it was cute, but there are 470832 videos to this out there. ^^;

...but while poking around looking for the flash *I'd* seen, I turned up quite a bit of other stuff...not just the re-makes and mocks and everything of this flash, but also things like the Wikipedia entry on it.

Yeah.

From there though, I found this - a *timeline* of these sorts of things... I've so seen like half of them already. *giiiggles* It's really fascinating, though, seeing this whole culture we're a part of, of stupid internet videos. Nearly everyone in my web class goes into giggles at the mere *mention* of a badger now, everyone knows Homestar Runner...

In celebration of whatever sort of new society we're making for ourselves, you get links. *giggles*

.: A live version of one of my personal favourites, the cursor thief. <3

.: She Blocked Me, which is amusing from the sheer validity of the thing. *giggles*

.: And then.. there's this. DO NOT WATCH unless you're over-tired, it's late at night, and/or you're a bit loopy at the moment to begin with. You'll be bored and won't find it funny. (I was cracking up just now, which I think's a sure sign I should be sleeping...)

 
...fuckdamnit, I *did* jinx myself, saying I'd had such a good weekend. >_< *Knew* that would happen.

 
FUCK.

*cries*

You guys.. I'm so, so sorry. I let you all down, myself included. All the sales have started at the beginning of the week...

...but this one started Sat. at 9am. Ticketbastard didn't have any of the times up when I checked last week, U2.com's never had any times or dates for the public sales, my emails from them only gave general timeframes and the presale times.

I checked HSBC Arena's site, to see if the show'd been cancelled, since it wasn't on Ticketmaster.
...the show's still on - the tickets for Buffalo, and Buffalo alone, go through tickets.com, not ticketmaster. *facepalm*

I ran through to check...and all I could get for two tickets was the shitty $50 seats behind the stage, or *one* 100-level seat, for $160.

*sighs heavily, buries face in hands* I am so, so sorry, everyone... I know you were all counting on me to get this, and I didn't.

All we can do now is listen for radio contests to pounce on..... (There's a show in Ohio that goes up tomorrow, but it's 9am tomorrow, I know it won't be possible to ask around to everyone by then.. there were more Toronto shows added as well, but as they added in two more shows as the sale happened, they undoubtedly went like *that* as well, especially with so few shows in Canada overall.)

I'm so sorry, so much more sorry than I can ever hope to say.........

 
O_O;

*major anxiety attack begins seeping in*

...since when do ticket sales begin on a saturday? it appears the second batch of third leg tickets went up on saturday at 10am...

...a few dates don't go 'til tomorrow...

...and I can't find the Buffalo show listed ANYWHERE on ticketmaster. *trying not to flip out entirely* it's still on u2.com, it was in the e-mails, but it used to be listed at the very top for me, as a show in upstate ny, but now it's not..and it's not *anywhere* in the list of U2 shows..it's not on ticketmaster's calendar view, either, there's nothing for Dec. 9...

*whiiiiiimpers, eyes wide and scared*

 
mmmm... been a very nice weekend. :) Gotten plenty of sleep, spent time playing with the cats, sorting through old things in my room, awash in happy memories, curling up each night on the couch, cats keeping me warm and an old Star Trek tape lulling me to sleep.. Spent time with Megs in the Bubble where sweetness and happiness and warmth abounds, snatched some time with Tom on aim, hung out with my sister, and Erik was over for a few hours tonight.. It's just been good, I feel very safe and loved right now, a warm little bubble around me, despite the snow still outside.

Love you all~ ^_^