..gah...am crap tired!....off to Boston tomorrow, tho! woo! ...should be fun....goin' with choir from school, but I'm roomin' with Daf and Laur (and another girl, but whatever..), which'll be great fun...plannin' on SLEEPING the whole way there, tho!

But yeah..so, while procrastinating on my econ hw, found this..don't know where this girl's located, but...
...

On a lighter note, d/n'd a buncha new mp3s just now...Radiohead, Moby, Coldplay, and, best of all, Robin Black and the Intergalactic Rock Stars ~_^.
..don't know what I'll do, should KaZaA go...actually, there'll prolly just be somethin' new to come up, like KaZaA/Morpheus/Grokster rose after Napster fell (*sniffle*..still miss Napster so very terribly!)...

 
Current wonderful music that's gotten me through this week:
*Live (esp. stuff off "Ecstatic Fanatic" album..must buy asap..)
*Stone Roses
*The Church
*David Bowie (esp. Ziggy Stardust)
*some Coldplay (since Daf's been raving about them the past few days, d/n'd some tonight..it *is* pretty good..I knew a few songs already, but..)
*and, of course, as always, U2. (Pop, and live stuff from LoveTown and ZooTV tours I d/n'd, plus random other stuff..)
*plus bits of Robin Black & the Intergalactic Rock Stars, the Cult, Radiohead, White Stripes, the Cure, The Other (who I found online - good stuff), Moby (today, after catching "We're All Made of Stars" on the announcements, and remembering that I *love* that song..), and, ehrm..Joe Walsh/James Gang. Cos I had on one of the White Stripes' songs, and Dad said the guitar part was just like an old James Gang song..so, went and d/n'd it, to see...it *is* rather similar...good stuff on both sides, tho.
..playlist is over six hours long again...which's good, cos I was reading about that long--!
But I'm dead tired. Good night!

 
I'm DONE!!!!!! Woo! ^_^ ...I love and adore The Satanic Verses (and everything else of Rushdie's), I really and truly do...but this journaling thing was killing me...and I'm done! At long last! ..'course, it's 1.30 in the morning, I've gotta get up for school in..oh, about four hours?
...
Shite.
*sigh*..ah well...easy classes tomorrow...still have economics paper to write, but I can get it done tomorrow night...
..amd *totally* sleeping he whole way to Bostan...err, Boston, come Friday!
(See?? Bostan was the name of the flight Gibreel and Saladin were on in the beginning of the book..named after one of the gardens of Paradise (in Islam?)..gah...enough of India for now! ...need to read like, some manga. or something...)

 
*sigh*...but *why* is blogspot down, yet again??? *mumblemumblegrumble*...
.
...must go talk to Mackie...
~_^

 
...'cept U2's "Do You Feel Loved?" just popped into my head.
So now I'm plannin' on havin' Bono sing me to sleep (again, as usual), as opposed to db...
..*trying to think of *why* it popped into my head*...
Ah. Cos Daf and I were singing it this morning...we were evacuated from the school (again) this morning..still not sure why, but prolly due to the huge clouds of exaust dust whatever that were in the halls (bloody construction!)...so yeah. We were stuck outside for rather awhile, and it was cold. And we'd been watching "Carmen" (as in, the opera) in music history, so I had songs from *that* stuck in my head, which I did *not* want there. So I asked Daffy what I could get stuck in my head...and the first thing we came up with was "Do You Feel Loved?", cos as Daf pointed out: "That'll warm you up."
..which, admitedly, it did...*blush*...esp. with my current Bono/Macphisto hang-up (well, rest of U2, too, but esp. Bono's singing and my daaaarling Mackie..ermm..right..-_-;).

"You got my head filled with songs,
you got my shoelaces undone.
Take my shirt, go on and take it off me,
you can tear it up if you can tie me down...

...With my fingers as you want them,
With my nails under your hide.
With my teeth at your back,
and my tongue to tell you the sweetest lies.
Do ya feel lo-o-oved? do ya feel lo-oved?..." -"Do You Feel Loved?", U2 (duh!)
~_^

 
..dude..I am *good*.... Last night, for a change of pace, I switched the desktop paper down here on Boquisha, from Ayashi no Ceres' Touya to my nice Velvet Goldmine desktop pic. (Shameless plug: Both available over on Desert Songs ~_^). Even tho I hadn't listened to any glam at all for awhile...I just liked how the pic'd come out, so I put it up.
Today, Mom'd finally found (err, rather, *grandma* found! *g*) some of her old piano music books...inc. a David Bowie one.
With lots of lovely pics.
...so....since this afternoon, I've fallen in love with Ziggy Stardust again. ^_^
And I came down here...and here was nice, glam Velvet Goldmine to greet me!
*g*...ok...so this is lame...but I'm *tired*, and my head's gonna explode, I've got waaaay too much going on just now...I need a brain break...
..and that's partly what this blog was created for. ~_^

..ps...no, this doesn't mean I've over my Mackie hang-up...drew a semi-decent pic of him today..hehe...and dressed in red and black (lacking any comfy gold stuff), and my Macphisto shoes...but I think Mackie borrows (more'n) a bit from Bowie any which way, sooo... ~_^

 
"Not that much to say I guess,
Just the same as all the rest
When you're tryin' t'throw yer arms around the world..."
-"Trying to Throw You Arms Around the World", U2
^_^

(..but don't we love my current love-of-the-moment? ...heehee...^~~^...~_^...too much Satanic Verses, I'm tellin' ya...supersaturating your life with that - or anything, really - tends to have its affects on you...
...but...*pretty* Mackie..! ^_^ ... ... ...errr....-_-;...)

 

What is YOUR Highschool label?
Hehehe....woo!!! ^_^
..and they say I've left my hippie ways behind... ~_^ (Actually, rock star wasn't a choice, soooo.... *g*)
Guy's got a cool headband, tho I could do without the beard... ~_^

 
Church today was...interesting...
..actually, it was bad, cos Dad called me at like, 8am, an' I'd not gone to bed 'til like, 4am...-_-; But I managed...got there, and saw B - who was as hyper and cheery as ever, grinning and waving to me like a psychopath, which cheered me up a bit.
But...
The sermon today was on Christian marriages...an' I knew right away it was gonna be rough for Dad. Which it was...
...as for me...I listened, but read through a few psalms at the same time, so I'd stay awake, and at least get something out of sitting there...(cos the marriage stuff doesn't exactly immediately apply to yours truly--!)...
Psalm 68 is nice.
...noticed Teraa dozing a few times... ~_^
But then, too, I noticed there was Communion today.
...which gave me something else to mull over...Do I take it, do I not?...hadn't before...and I came to the conclusion that there was no reason I shouldn't, so I would...just, stand up when Dad did, go get the bread and juice...
But then, as people started moving up front to partake...I faltered, got nervous, I don't want to go up there in fromt of everyone, I can just stay here with my siblings...and then it was our turn to go up, and as I was still torn, didn't know what to do, mind racing...and as I looked over to see when Dad stood up...my sister and my brother stood up, I stood up with them and Dad.
And I smiled...that was just...
...
*smiles*

It's kinda of odd, thinking about it...cos I never really thought of my sibilngs and I being close, but...I think we are. At any rate, we stick together, we stand up for each other when Dad's lecturing, or when one's in trouble, or someone comes in late we cover for them...when Teraa's had a bad day, teachers yelled all day etc. and she's all upset...I get pissed that they make her mad, I try and make her see that if it's not her fault, she's got no reason to be upset, it's okay, it'll pass...and just...everything, I want to be there for them, Matantis and I, oftentimes we just let each other be, but peacably, y'know? and then some nights, we've talked for hours, about things at home, about school, friends' troubles, everything...no, not everything, because each of us knows the other is pretty private when it comes to family...like, I don't even know how to describe it, it's just..we know we've got our own lives, and let each other live them..are always there, solid, supportive, but..not interfering, I think that's it. And it's an unspoken thing, but that's the way we grew up, that's what we're used to and prefer. Dad may not entirely understand it, but we *were* raised that way, to be so very independent, and we do quite well that way...we never went to our parents with school troubles, may've griped about a teacher a bit, but never really..really just, poured out everything to family at all. Just thought things through and figured them out on our own, or talked with friends..
..and we played together when we were little, Matantis and I would go outside and build forts, play secret agents, ride our bikes, hang out with our friends...didn't bug Mom, just went out and found ways to amuse ourselves. And now Teraa's learning from us, we all have our own interest, we talk and things, but don't fret over trying to keep up on all the details of each others' lives.
And that's the way we like it. ...it's sounding cold, but it's not, not at all...we care, but don't interfere...
Dad just sat and talked to me for about fifteen minutes, the sermon today did hurt him, like I knew it would, but...
See, thing is...he says what really still hurts, is that *we* hurt, that *we're* missing out on things since the divorce, that we've not got everything we should...
But the thing is...
...we don't see it that way. Not most days, anyway. Oh, I mean, there're days when it's bad, but...not really so much. A year or two ago, yeah, there were days when I just... but, we've moved on. At least, I'm assuming the other two are doing the same as I am, I think they are.. We've gotten on with our lives, accepted things, and just..we're fine. It doesn't impact say, school, or friends, or our lives, really...it affects our economics, true, and what we can and can't do sometimes, and I've got to cook supper most nights, but..I was doing that anyway, once Mom'd started working.
We're fine.
...I don't know why, cos kids who go through a divorce are supposed to have such troubles with it, are supposed to be so ravaged by it...
...but we're not, really. It's affected us, I'm sure, I think I'm a lot more protective of my sister than I was, but...
I don't know what sets us apart, but... I think it's just *because* we've always been so independent, maybe...
We're just tough kids, we'll make it. *smile*

 
Ahhh...*finally* got the thing made... finished my Macphisto desktop paper just now, go see it! *g*
...sorry...but I s'pose I've developed a slight hang-up with Macphisto..again...between reading The Satanic Verses and finding (and subsequently downloading) a ton of Macphisto's phone calls...yeah.
^~~^
~_^