*sighs heavily* So there's both a fair-sized happiness and a reallybig sadness inside me right now... and that on top of the usual vortex of confusion on all sorts of things.

..so if I'm not real talkative on aim or whatever, don't feel offended, I just have a lot on my mind right now.

 
goddamnfucking undulation.

*Just* when I thought my life was finally going to be pleasant again after two weeks of exhaustion......

I don't feel like going anywhere today, but if I stay here, I'll just brood and make myself even sicker.

(and, as usual, it's my own failings and shortcomings that've made this such a mess... I fall short of human needs, why should God even bother with me?.....)

 
*sighs* nothing worse than seeing those you love hurting and being powerless to help.....

 
*HAPPY DANCE!*
thanks to Daf for the linkage. ^_^ ..and here's hoping this decision lasts awhile. *crosses fingers*

 
So my plan for the day was to get up a bit early so I had time to get things together and all, go to class, then pop over to the library awhile and poke around the microfilms to look for old Fredonia newspapers (putting waaaayyy too much into this class project, but y'know *G*), come back and hang out awhile, then head back to campus for vap later in the evening.

What *actually* happened today: Got up a bit early and got things together for class, spazzed over the Larry letter <3 <3 <3, went to class...
...then ended up getting lunch with Tom and sat around talking with him for a good, oh, five, six hours. *laughs* By then it was like 7.30, we're like dude, vap starts in an hour, might's well hang around..he went to go get some dinner, I scampered to the library to get on aim and let Megs know I was alright cos she hadn't heard from me at all, grabbed a terribly bland pasta salad from the cafe and another chai (I'm addicted now ^^; ), and waited for vap to start. As I was hanging back from the mob at the door, Tom came up the stairs. *giggles* So I had someone to sit with! It was exciting. *giiiggles*

But it was really very cool, we've been talking a good bit more this semester, though we'd talked some last semester..and it was just one of those things where even just looking at someone, you know you'll get along, y'know? So then after vap, we were walking back to the willic, and he invited me over sometime this weekend to watch Trigun, cos I haven't yet and I've been told that I need to a lot. But HE LIKES ESCA!!!! omg I was so excited. *laughs* Sooooo few people have seen it, and it was what got me hooked on anime, and I adore cos it's amazing and so I was all like YAY! *g*

It was just funny though, cos as we're sitting there, like EVERYONE I know on campus walked by us and said hi to me. *giiiggles* Daf, Jeff, Haruna, Daf'n'Jeff, Daf'n'Jeff again, Daf, Jeff, Britt and Laura..my prof. from the stupidclassIhated last semester! (It was CREEPY, he walks by then looks back and is like, 'did you cut your hair?' I'm like, uhmmm, a little? and he's all 'cos it looks shorter than when I last saw it' and I'm like uhmmmm..k. it was very odd. O_o; )
But I just laughed like everytime this happened, cos it made it look like I'm all popular and shit, which I'm not, it's just that like EVERYONE I know happened to go by at some point. *giiiggles*

But yeah. So I officially have a new friend! One that I met on my very own!!! *laughs* Be proud of me. *G*


Also, I officially have found my major. Media Arts people are fecking awesome. A few of us were talking in class today, and I brought up my new external harddrive, they asked how big it was and I said 160gbs and we AAALLLLL drooled. *laughs happily, claps hands* Tom and I were sitting there talking about our Apple lust, and what we'd do for a G5.. it was great. *giiiggles* We'll all such technology whores.

So, yeah, it was a very good day. ^_^

(And then I come home to find Britt on the phone with Erik. For like ever. I was hiiiighly amused. *giiiiggles*)

O_O! only it's later'n I thought and I am *SO* fecking tired omg. *laughs* sweet dreams, everyone...

 
I can't even....

This. This is what I needed. I'm so happy that I'm not even going to make you click a link to go read it, I'm posting it in its entirety here:



02.02.2005
An open letter from Larry Mullen
This is not something that I would normally do, but I feel that I have to do something to redress this situation.

There was a mess up in the way the tickets were distributed through U2.com for the Vertigo pre-sale. Some of it was beyond our control, but some of it wasn't.

I am now in the process of figuring out a way of distributing the tickets for our intended return to North America in the fall. The only fair way of doing this, is to give U2 Propaganda members, who are now U2.com members, priority in the queue.

After that, people will be given priority in the order in which they joined. Many people who joined U2.com and didn't get tickets are understandably angry. They now have the option to get a full refund of their subscription fee.

The idea that our long-time U2 fans and scalpers competed for U2 tickets through our own web site is appalling to me. I want to apologise to you who have suffered that.

If your U2.com pre-sale experience has left you disappointed, I hope this will go some way towards reassuring you of our total commitment to our audience.

Slainte
Larry.

By the way, a note to those so-called U2 fans who are quick to accuse
U2 of unseemly behaviour, I've only got two words for you...


*______________________________________________*

This is what I've been waiting for, all I wanted was some acknowledgment from them.. and LARRY!!!!! Oh Larry... He's so-- I can't even---

*so happy, heart breaks*

This is why I'm a U2 fan, always and forever.

 
O____________________O!

Dude I just hooked the new harddrive back up, on a whim, figuring since I'm going to bed I could let Lawrence spazz all he wanted and it wouldn't be an issue?

IT WORKED!!!!!!! It made the happy little connecting sound ONCE, and I clicked My Computer, and Lacie (G:).

*_____________________________________________________*

..this thing has more space than my entire comp.

I realised that this means, in theory, I could ACTUALLY get EVERYTHING! off of Lawrence, and do a nice full cleaning, reformatting and etc.

...

...

*giiiiiiiiiiiiiiiggles* But not yet. *flings files over to burn while in the lab tomorrow to clear a bit of space so downloading is again a possibility* XD

 
Also, my external harddrive came today, but Lawrence hasn't made friends with it yet. *pokes*

 
*yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaawns, rubs eyes*
This has officially been THE longest week ever. And it's only barely Thursday. x_x;

However, I had a delightful time looking up info on old cameras tonight. YAY KODAK! <3 Definitely found the camera I bought at the antique store before break - mine's closer to the one on the left, and yes, it has the 'clip-on flashgun'. heeeeeh. It's pretty hot yo.

Also, because I know none of us ever remember, if we even know the real story:
Why Chili is pronounced in such a way as to confuse the entire rest of the world's population.

 
So in Life Drawing, each class, we're to put up in the hallway every drawing we've done since the last time we did so, and the professor will look over everything and call us out individually to make suggestions.

At the end of class today, I went out into the hall and took all my drawings back down again. I had just gotten them all down and gathered them up, holding them in front of me, when I looked down the hall and saw my friend Tom (who's been in bunches of my media arts classes) on his way to class. We both smiled and said hello.

...and I realised that I was standing there clutching a huuuuge 2'x3' drawing I'd done of a naked man. Rather detailed naked. (It was a longer drawing.)

*facepalm, bluuuuuuuuuuuuush*


Far too classic to be believable. *giggles, shaking head*

 
So, if you've not read the news over on Megs' lj (which reminds me - yes I know the links on here aren't working yet - will get that up soon)... tickets sold out *JUST* as fast in the general sale as the presale, NYC was out in like fifteen seconds. O_o;;;
Megs locked a post on her lj for the bunch of us in need of NYC, she and I and André (who stayed up waylate his time to keep us company, and check interference and things for us cos he's awesome like that) were fliiiiiipping out over there the entire time.
...they never did add any more dates for Madison Square, there must've been a conflict and they couldn't secure the venue or *something*, cos there are two shows in NJ, Philly, two or three in Boston, etc... but they'll be back in the fall. REALLY back, to actually go to more than ten cities. *giggles*

And we still have tickets! Seats - good seats, esp. if the stage set-up is what we think it's going to be - for NJ, and it's going to be wonderful. ^_________^ Megs = awesome. *GLOMPS* We're going to have an awesome time.

And third leg!!! This will not be NEARLY so difficult, and you all are going to shows and it will be good. *G*

...and really? We're just glad this is all OVER. Ticketmaster is making amends, we know what shows we're going to and when, we have tickets, people will stop being pissy and threatening to sue Principal Management and etc., and it's going to be much happier around here. :)


Also in good news... today's events led me to draw another chibiU2 comic. *giiiiiiggles*

 
Also on a brighter note, had a wonderful weekend with Erik visiting, he left this morning.. He and I and Britt hung out all day yesterday, played some Gauntlet on the NES <3, went out to the Chinese buffet for dinner <3 <3, picked up some candy and Shasta from the Dollar Store and some dvds from Blockbuster, and had a wonderful night.

Eurotrip, I thought for sure I'd hate, but I actually *liked*. *giiggles* Idek, maybe it was cos I was so tired, but it was pretty funny, and not just *stupid* like I'd thought it would be. Good music helped.
Sky Captain and the World of Tomorrow, I officially loved. The adverts for it did not let me down, I adoooooooored the style of it, the way they did all the graphics. (Pathetic, I know, that I know how to achieve that *exact* look in Photoshop.. but it was still gorgeous omg. <3) I've never been good at rating movies as a movie in general, Britt bitching about Gwynyth Paltrow the whole time probably convoluted my opinion of her acting, but ooooomg JUDE LAW!!! I knew he was pretty, but I realised I'd never actually *seen* him in something.. and omg I'm in love. His voice is like doom. goooodnessss. (And he's really pretty. <3) Really, I mean, it was all supposed to be in the style of the old sci-fi-ish movies and all, so taking it with that in mind, it was done really, really well (based on what little of the old serials I've seen). Those robots were *perfect*, they scared the shit out of me - large, analog mechanics. *shudders* (Idek why, but things like that've always creeped me out..you leave me near huge gears or any really large mechanical thing, and I get creeped out. Not like, paralyzingly so, I just get equal amounts of fascination and dread/fear.) And the end was PERFECT omg. *laughing* The chick was aggrevating us, esp. like 3/4 the way through, and we kept yelling at her.. and then! And then Jude Law's character had THE *BEST* last line of a movie EVER. Oh it was so perfect, it was *great*.

After the movies, we left hte tv on cartoon network and watched random shit, and Britt and Erik wrestled all over the living room for like half an hour, while I watched with half an eye, giggling, curled up drowsily on a couch and tried to keep at a safe distance. *giiggles* Highly amusing, I was just really tired, so...

But it was nice, Erik and I talked a lot and it was just really good... *smiles gently* He's growing up a little, I'm really glad to see it. Still fixates on potential/past/having girlfriends far too much, but.. *laughs softly* ..but I have days where things like that worry me too, so I understand. I think.. *lightbulb* I'm going to write this here so I remember it later and can talk to him about it, see if this is it.. I think he just lets the pressures of the world around him get to him and force him into action too much. I really don't think he's in pre-nursing at MCC right now cos he had a heart-felt desire to.. and all of these girls he's named off at me and talked to me about, I don't think any of them is really what he wants. But he feels like he has to chose, and so he does...

...*laughs faintly, shaking head* Me, I have the opposite problem, I just don't chose......

 
Was talking to Britt just now, talking about the ticket-situation (which I'm feeling worlds better about - more in a minute), André came up.. Britt asked if this trip to the US was going to be the first time he and Kate met in person, I said yeah, she asked if they're dating, I said yeah, and she was all THAT'S NOT DATING! You can't be dating with no physical contact! Calmly, I said yes you can, they're the sort of people that works for, and she kept yelling over me, I mean in such a way it was half jokingly over-doing it, but yelling and vehement and uncompromising nonetheless, shooting me down and drowning me out and saying NO THEY CAN'T BE, THAT'S NOT DATING!
And I kept my voice down and said I wans't going to argue it, we'll never resolve it, and I walked away.

...

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

She just walked over to my room.

And handed me two sheets of paper, printed off the computer, highlighted.

The definitition of dating, from dictionary.com.

>_______<

It was ALL I could do to not blow up at her. Glanced at the paper, saw what it was, and flung it to the ground without reading. Keeping my voice calm, though I could feel myself getting flushed and my chest is all tight, I said no, look, I have my definition and you have yours, we're never going to resolve this, just leave it.


She won't. She has to be right.

...if I ever do this, someone seriously? smack me and tell me to shut the fuck up.



*takes a slow, deep breath* And now for lighter news, if I can recover from that.. I really was calm, 'til she flung that paper in my face just now. >_< Just when I was finally feeling better after a week of frustration and being upset...

First it was someone on interference, and then it quickly spread, reaching people on Megs' friends-list.
Ticketmaster e-mailing, or calling people, apologising for them not being able to use their pre-sale codes, and giving them the chance to purchase two GA tickets. *smiles warmly, part of the weight falling from shoulders* I feel *worlds* better already. Unfortunately, it won't help Megs and I.. she used her pre-sale code, and I didn't e-mail and complain to anyone about it.

Tickets for NYC go onsale tomorrow morning at 9am. I'm getting up early, catching an earlier bus to campus, will be there at 8.30am. Will head up to the Media Arts lab in McEwan, and get situated there, opening windows for ticketmaster, u2.com, my e-mail, and Megs' lj, as well as print out a seating chart in case it's needed (note to me: REMEMBER TO DO THIS!). The lab's supposed to be open at 8am, though my class in there's not 'til 9.30am..if by some chance I can't get in, will go to the library.
Here's hoping Safari agrees with ticketmaster and everything else.. wish I could install firefox on there, it'd make my life less stressful, can't switch between browser windows for shit with safari/osX... But, then again, the monitors are bigger and at a much higher res., so I should be able to fit a bunch of them on the window at once without trouble. *giggles* S'all good.

In other news, ordered a new toy tonight. ^_^ heeeeeh. Definitely the best deal I could find..and it's 160 gbs!!! That's more than Lawrence has altoegther. *giiggles* Granted, this is being bought for my video class (here's hoping it gets here soon, 'else working on this project's going to be a pretty big pain..which reminds me *flings blank cds into bag to take tomorrow, so I don't lose all my work when the system purges*), but.. heeeeeeeeh. It's still hot, yo.
...though, I really can't say I'm impressed with the look of the thing, it's designed by *porche* people? wtf. a) that's really random, and b) it's a fecking silver rectangle. *giggles, shrugs* ah well.. it's 160gbs. *drool*


...Britt's still really childish. -_-; *goes back to finishing two more self-portraits for drawing class*